It was a dream I know
but it was fun
we were laughing and having so much fun
he was fun
we were in school
he was cracking jokes and so was I
we were laughing at everything
my stomach ached and I couldnt breath
it felt so real
so fun
I hadn't laughed like that with someone in a longtime
then he turned and looked at me
and said something and turned back around
I kissed him
his lips were soft and wet
but he smelt like garlic afterwards
no longer fresh and clean
I apologized with a nervous laugh
he ignored it and continued to make jokes
I kept apologizing
he said it was okay
I wondered if he liked it
I asked "arn't you gay?"
he said "yeah"
and I couldn't stop thinking how embarrassing this is
my first kiss was with a gay guy
I went to the bathroom
there were no stalls
some guys walked in
I gave the guy next to me advice on a girl
he ignored me
I told him he was welcomed
I kissed him on the cheek walking out of the bathroom
he told me to wait
but I kept walking
I had to go to the concert
he caught up to me
he asked my name
I couldnt tell him
I was late
I went inside and looked for my place on stage
the guy I was laughing with pointed to it laughing
the teacher seemed sick if our laughing
I kept laughing while going to my seat
I realized the guy from the restroom was still chasing me
I knew he wanted me
for some reason I was really confident in this dream
and happy
before the concert could start I woke up
I tried to go back to sleep because I wanted to see the concert
but I couldn't
my stomach kept begging
I got up thinking about the dream
I could still feel his lips
I could still smell garlic
but I wasn't happy anymore
I was sad
it was a dream I know
but why did it feel so real
why did I feel so different
whatever
it was just a dream
and I knew that
