I was so stupid.
I had to go and ask for repentance.
I had to really seek for God.
It was as if me and Andre had this soul tie.
Like I couldn't let him go.
I couldn't forget him.
No I don't wish to be with him.
Honestly if he tried to be with me I would deny his advances.
I just miss how it was when we first met.
But this whole thinga taught me..
You don't have to send dirty messages or sexy pictures to keep a guy interested.
They should be interested in your company alone.
Not what you can offer.
So I made a mistake.
Most would look at me differently.
My best friend does.
Even though she jokes about me being an internet hoe.
It still hurts
She doesn't know it's something I did to get my mind off of how lonely I was.
How empty I felt.
Sadly I looked for love in all the places and went about it the wrong way.
I know that now.
