Why Wait? (Frerard)

Unexpected

Frank's View

Me and Mikey are playing Guitar Hero in Gerard's room while Bob is in the bathroom and Gee is downstairs getting something to drink. "Hey Frank.. Can I tell you a secret? i kinda promised i wouldn't tell but you know me." I look at him confused, but then i laugh, "Sure Mikes what is it?" he leans in close to my ear and whispers. "Gerard sings. And, He's actually good."  I wasn't expecting that. "oh uh, that's cool mikes!" i go to start the next song on the game but Mikey stops me. "You play guitar... I play bass, Bob Drums, My friend Ray also shreds a bit, DUDE. WE COULD BE AN ACTUAL BAND." Gerard always talks about how he wants to start a band, but he says he can't sing or anything. I wish He'd let me hear... 

I hear foot steps pounding down the stairs. It's Just Gerard. "Where's Bob?" he says tossing me a beer. "Bathroom, he's been there for a while now... Wonder why..." I say as Mikey goes and knocks on the door. "Hey bob. You okay? you've been in there for a while now." Ask Mikey says this, we hear shuffling in the bathroom. " OH YEAH HEY GUYS MY BAD." Bob walks out of the bathroom with a bit of a stumble. He wipes his eyes and blinks a lot. "I just kinda, Uh, Fell asleep." we all laugh. we all know he didn't fall asleep on the can. We could smell it on his clothes. "Smoking ' in my bathroom? With out me!? you should be ashamed!" Gerard teased. "Oh uh. No I-" i cut him off. "Bro, i've been around plenty of pot heads. Can't fool me!" We all laugh as he sits there all quiet. 

A few hours go by and Bob's knocked out. Mikey's had a few too many and he's going on about Unicorns, Gerard's sipping on his coffee, trying to stay awake. I've never seen people like coffee as much as the Way's. I mean, Damn. They drink a lot of coffee. I felt a bit tipsy after having like what, 3 drinks? i don't remember.  I lay my head on Gerard's shoulder, i feel tired. "You okay Frankie?" i nod and cuddle into his chest. 

What am I doing. He's gonna Find out my...Secret.

He laughs gently and places a hand on my head. "I know your drunk Frank.  Too bad it can't be like this for real." WHAT!? I'm so not drunk, only a bit woozy. BUT WAIT, he said he wanted it like this when? What? I can't comprehend, maybe I am drunk.

Gerard's View

Frank's head is in my lap, He's passed out.  He's so small and cute. I don't even care if he knows at this point. He's messed up anyways, Like he can even understand. me. "Gerwared? Is Thwat Yoooou?" he mutters. "Yeah Frank, it's Still me." i laugh. "Siiiiiinngg to meeee." He smiles and says in a sing-song voice. Should I? I mean, He won't remember...

I slowly ease out the lyrics to Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus

His Eyes widen and he goes all serious. "Oh my god. You sound-" He hiccups, "-You sound heavenly, Gerard. Like Damn. Your'e amazing." He's sitting up now, close to my face. I want to do it, you know what i'm talking about. I just Wanna plant one on him. I mean, whats the worse thing that could happen?

I lean in and kiss him. Slowly but surely, he kisses back, sending shivers up my spine. All i feel is butterflies and fireworks and other things that explode-I don't know. He places his hand on my neck and deepens the kiss, Making my vision blur as i shut my eyes. The kiss gets more and more real, as it felt so good it was fake at the beginning. Now it's sunk in. I just Kissed my best friend. What if he remembers this shit? What if he calls me a freak? I pull away quickly, which sucked because frank was getting into it. "You okay? Did I-" I cover my mouth and face. SHIT. what have i done? 

I get up and run up the stairs, out the door and head for the Cemetery, My Safe Place.

Frank's View

I snap out of my alcohol indused trance. Did he just? He really did. Woah. I can't-I dont know what to do.  He just got up and ran out. Did I screw it up? was it me? Oh god Please just tell me what happened. I turn my head to see Mikey drawing a dick on Bob's face. Classic. He sang to me though, his voice sounded like, if Heaven were real, The angels would have his voice. It was perfect. I was gonna lean, but then Gerard took me by suprise. He kissed Me... The guy i've crushed on for like two years, Kissed Me. Now he's probably regreting it all, I see why. It's because it was me- I'm small and ugly, covered in tattoos, My hair is always nappy and a weird where i shaved it, I'm a freak.  I cuddle against myself on the couch and just think about what gerard could be thinking... Maybe about me..? The kiss..? I just want to know if he felt the sparks like i did. 

Then i think, What if you lost him?