Dolan twin imagines

Perfect.... (Ethan Dolan)

Ethan had become really distance lately and I don't know why.
Am I too clingy?
Did he getbored of me?
Am I ugly?
Did I get fat?
All these questions swarmed my head as I just sat on the floor in my room. I looked out me window to into Ethan's room. He lived right next door. He was sitting in his bed talking to someone. I saw him laugh and his cheeks turned slightly red/ pink, as is he was blushing. I didn't want to think anything bad so I just let it go and went to bed.

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I had woke up to a tapping on my window. I get up form my comfy and warm bed to see Ethan there on my balcony. I look at the clock in my room to see what time it is.
3:45am
I open my window, about to lecture him but I was stopped by his lips coming in contact with mine. It wasn't the same it was............ different.
I pulled away and looked at him, he just looked the other way.
"Ethan" I said he just kissed me again. It tastes different. I could taste her lipstick.
"Y/n" he said but there was different inflections as he said me name.
"No stop, I can taste her lipstick, when you say my name it sounds different, I can just alredy see her laying across your chest" I said pushing him back a little.
"Babe what at you-"
"No get out!, I hate you"
"Please let me explain" he pleaded
"Why, just so you can say how she is beautiful, just like you........ How she has a touch that could make anyone fall in love with, like you, how I could feel the distance as you remember her fingertips, and......... a-and how she's perfect" I said tears falling down my face.
"You let me think that, I was too fat, to ugly, to clingy" I said pushing he towards the window.
"P-Please" he said his voice cracking, for a second I almost felt sympathy....but, NO!
before I pushed him I said one last thing, "maybe I should have been more like her"
I push him one last time and he fell onto my balcony. I slammed my door and locked it, shut the curtains and sat on my bed.

I decided to listen to music cause now I definitely can't sleep. I put my phone on shuffle play and of corse the song Perfect- by Selena Gomez, was the first to play. I decided to sing along.

Different inflection when you say my name
Kiss me, but your kiss don't taste the same
Is it real or am I going out of my mind?
Curious 'bout the company that you keep
'Cause I hear you talking 'bout her in your sleep
And now you've got me talking 'bout her in mine

Ooh, and I bet, she has it all
Bet she's beautiful like you, like you
And I bet she's got that touch
Makes you fall in love, like you, like you

I can taste her lipstick and see her laying across your chest
I can feel the distance every time you remember her fingertips
Maybe I should be more like her
Maybe I should be more like her
I can taste her lipstick, it's like I'm kissing her, too
Ay she's perfect
Ay she's perfect

How does she touch you? Can I try it, too?
I know you're twisted, but baby, I'm twisted, too
I wanna know how she could make a man lose his mind

Ooh, with the smell of her perfume
I could love her, too, like you, like you
And I can almost hear her laugh
Curving on her back for you, for you

I can taste her lipstick and see her laying across your chest
I can feel the distance every time you remember her fingertips
Maybe I should be more like her
Maybe I should be more like her
I can taste her lipstick, it's like I'm kissing her, too
Ay she's perfect

I can see her body rushing into you
Crashing on your skin
Burning within, burning so deep, deep
On your skin, skin next to me
She's crashing on your skin
Settling in, burning so deep, deep
On your skin, skin while you sleep, uh

I can taste her lipstick and see her laying across your chest
I can feel the distance every time you remember her fingertips
Maybe I should be more like her
Maybe I should be more like her
I can taste her lipstick, it's like I'm kissing her, too
Ay she's perfect

As soon as the song was over I was full on crying. I got up and punched to wall, threw everything on the floor. I put a pillow to my face and screamed. I threw my phone at the wall.

After my fit was over, I realized I wasn't perfect.

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That song is one of my favorite songs I just love it. Thank you for reading my shitty stuff.
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