Little Did She Know (COMPLETED)

10

"WHERE'S the good in goodbye? Where's the nice in nice try? Where's the us in—"

"Stap! Stap ples huhu. Maggie, maawa ka beh sa eardrums ko!" Pagmamakaawa ni Candy sa pasigaw niyang pagkanta. Pero imbes na tumigil ay nagpatuloy lang siya.

"No matter how it falls apart, there's an "art" in breaking hearts. But there's no fair in farewell, no. And whe—"

"Letsugas, ayoko na! Aah!" Tili nito at pinatay ang speaker.

Nagsalubong ang kilay niya. "Hey!"

"Ano bang ka-bitter-an 'to, ha? Bakit mo 'ko ipinatawag bigla?" anito bagkus.

Hindi siya sumagot. Sa halip ay nagpasak ng earphones at kumanta na naman. "Meditate, get hypnotized. Anything to take it from your mind but it won't go, ohh. You're doing all these things out of desperation. Ohh."

Tumaas ang kilay nito. "So Six Degrees of Separation naman ang trip mo? Ano ba, may umalis bang maha—" Natigilan ito bigla marahas na lumipad ang tingin sa mukha niya, sandaling natulala. Ngunit hindi niya pinansin. She knew what Candy would say next and she didn't want to hear any of it.

"First! You think the worst is a broken heart! What's gonna kill you is the second part. And the third! Is when your world splits down the middle!"

"Shit." Candy muttered.

"And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself. Fifth, you see them out with someone else. And the sixth is when you admit you may have fucked up a little!"

"Holy sheez, Annette Margarette."

"No, no, there ain't no help. It's every ma—"

"Na-in love ka kay Brennan?!"

"You're going through the six degrees of separation!"

"Oh, my god."

She tried not to be affected. She really tried hard. But the moment she saw the concerned and pitiful look on Candy's face, that's when she knew that there's no point in hiding. She knows, anyway.

Everyone would soon know, anyway.

She buried her face on the pillow beside her and suddenly broke into sobs. Letting all the pain and longing in her heart pour out. Crying away all the regrets. Wallowing in self-pity and self-disappointment.

And for the nth time around, she muttered to herself, ang tanga mo talaga.

In three ways, to be exact. Una, dahil hinayaan niyang magpatuloy ang hindi magandang relasyon sa pagitan nilang magkapit-bahay, therefore, resulting in his low opinion of her. Pangalawa, dahil hindi siya naging aware sa nangyayari sa mismong sarili niya kaya hindi niya namamalayang hinayaan na pala niya ang sariling mahulog dito.

And lastly, dahil alam niya sa sarili niya na kung papapiliin man siya ng mamahalin, si Brennan at si Brennan pa rin talaga! Even if he wouldn't love her back.

"Maggie..." Naramdaman niya ang paghagod ni Candy sa likod niya.

"Pabaril mo na lang ako sa Luneta, Candy." Humihikbing sambit niya. "Hindi ko alam na ganito pala ang level ng ka-shungahan ko."

"Sinabi ko naman na kasi sayo dati, diba? Nakaka-in love si Brennan."

Pinukol niya ito nang masamang tingin. "Hindi ka naman totoong in love sa kanya, eh! Ano, na-heartbroken ka na ba sa kanya nang ganito? Nasabi mo na ba sa sarili mo na 'ah, dapat pala ito yung ginawa ko. Dapat pala hindi ganito, ganyan blah, blah, blah', ha? Naramdaman mo na ba 'yung halos gusto mo nang ipa-euthanasia 'yung sarili mo kasi sobrang tanga mo?"