Broken

Chapter 41

I am scared of how he will react. I know he is going to be very angry, but I don't want him to make me leave or for him to yell at me because of it. I don't want him to think that I am what everyone else says I am. I am so scared of that. I really don't want to say anything. 

"Well," I looked down, "ac..actually..n..nothing."

He grabbed my hand, "what.happened?"

Tears swelled in my eyes and he noticed right away. 

"You..you are going to be..be so angry," I cried, "you are...are going to think I..I am what everyone else s..says I am."

"Skylar," he said, "what happened."

"He..." I stuttered, "he r..raped me."

Tears burst out of my eyes and he just sat there in shock. 

"He raped you?" he stood up.

"I..I'm sorry," I cried, "I..I will just go..I..I'm sorry Austin."

I stood up and I felt his arms wrap around me.

"You aren't going anywhere," he said, "do not apologize. If anything I am sorry."

"W..why?" I asked. 

"You do not deserve that," he shook, "no way. You don't, you are too sweet for that. Too nice and caring."

"You..you don't think I'm a whore?" I looked up, "or..or a slut?"

"Are you kidding?" he asked, "of course not Skylar..never."

He kept his arms around me and I just stayed there.

"It isn't your fault," he shook, "I will never think that of you. Ever."

I just looked at him. His crystal eyes that were locked on mine had hate, love, and sadness filled. 

"I was so scared," I shook, "everytime..I was more scared than I was before. It happened so much Austin..so many times. I never want to go through that again. I can't believe he did that. I..I can't do this Austin. I don't want to be here. I don't want to live with this, I don't want to live with him Austin. I don't know what to do."

"You don't have to be scared anymore," I shook, "ever again. I know I have said that so many times, and something always happens but this time is different. I will not let you go back to him, I will do absolutely everything in my power to keep you away from him. I won't let him touch you, I won't let him come near you. I will not let you leave my side nor will I leave yours. Okay? I've got you, and I will refuse to let you go again. I swear on my life Skylar..I will not let anything bad happen to you, ever again."

I looked back up at him and just hugged him. I was so scared but so happy to be back in his arms. 

"I missed this," I cried. 

"What do you mean?" he asked. 

"I mean I missed this," I looked down, "you, your hugs, the way you talk to me. I missed all of it. As time went on I just made myself beleive that I was going to die. That I would never see or talk to you again. That you didn't care..enough to come after me."

"Seriously?" he lifted  my chin, "I will ALWAYS come after you. Always..and I missed you too, alot more than you probably think I did."

I smiled small and he pressed his lips to my forehead.

"I love you Skylar," he said, "forever and always. I don't care what happens, I will always love you. You are the first person who hasn't given up on me. The first person I can actually say I love and care about. It isn't just because I feel bad for you, it is because you are so amazing and you can smile through the toughest times. You make me feel good about myself, like I am truly worth something."

"I love you too," I smiled. 

"Are you hungry?" he asked, "you seriously look like a skeleton, I will be right back."

He walked out. 

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AUSTIN POV!!!

I found her and it was horrible. I didn't know what to do for a second, she looked like she had been though hell and back. I honestly wouldn't doubt it with the way her dad was. I was able to get her home with me safe and sound though, and I was happy about that. 

As soon as we walked in my uncle greeted her. He annoys me sometimes. We got up to my room and I had her lay down. After she told me what had happened I just wanted to hold her and never ever let her go.I felt so bad, I can not imagine how or what she was thinking. She was probably so scared and I feel like shit. I could not get to her in time, she went through that and I couldn't get to her. I seriously feel so incredibly terrible. 

The way she looked at me, her eyes. They were filled with sadness and pain, and I didn't know how to fix it. It was hard to make her smile and laugh for real, and I understand why. I just hate seeing her hurt. I want her happy, I want her with me forever. I don't want her to ever leave again, ever. It'll be easier to keep her with me though, her dad thinks she is gone. He thinks that I was some bad guy that sold her off, although I won't ever do that. She looked so pale and skinny, it was sickening to be honest. I knew by the looks of it that she hadn't eaten in days upon days and probably would have passed soon due to starvation and dehydration. 

I went to get her something to eat. I knew she was starving, but I also knew that she would deny it. I grabbed my keys and drove to taco bell. There I got her a bunch of things and got myself a couple things as well. I drove back home and walked up the stairs. I handed her the food and made her eat. Soon it was gone and I was quite surprised. 

"Thank you," she said. 

"Don't thank me," I shook. 

She sighed and stood up. She threw her trash away and then walked into the bathroom. I watched her look at herself in the mirror. I watched the way her eyes moved, and the way her hands shook. I watched the way she slowly shook her head and I knew I had to do something about it. I stood up and walked over to her. There I wrapped my arms around her from behind and leaned close to her ear. 

"You are still my girl," I said, "you are still just as beautiful."

She smiled and set her hands in mine. I gently picked her up and I laid her back down in my bed. 

"Lets get some sleep," I whispered. 

She nodded and I turned off the light. I walked back over and laid down next to her. I wrapped my arms around her and she turned to me slowly. I pressed my lips to her forehead and ran my fingers up and down her back. 

"I love you princess," she said, "I love you so much. You are forever safe."

She cuddled close to me and closed her eyes. I was still in so much shock about all of this.