Slave to You [COMPLETED]

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

Being a bitch is my defense mechanism because i know to myself that i am weak.

I got bullied back when i was in grade school. I was bullied for being skinny. I fixed myself, i tried to change myself for the better. I tried copying those characters i watched from TV, mean and bitchy.

A good disguise for someone who's weak like me.

Nakita ko kung paano sila hangaan ng mga tao, those queen bees at school, so i tried to be like them. And here i come, i did this because i want to please people, i want to show them that i am not worth the bully.

Pero kahit anong katauhan ang gawin ko, people will still hate me.

And Drexzel is not an exemption.

I sighed.

I am so tired from all of this bullshit.

Alam kong napapansin na niya ang pag-iwas ko sakaniya. He doesn't remember any single detail on that night. Pero lahat nang sinabi niya, lahat nang iyon tumatak saakin.

I did him a favor, ako na mismo ang umiiwas para hindi na siya mahirapan.

I'm currently preparing for his dinner. Hindi naman talaga kami sabay kung kumain. I'm a slave, hindi pwedeng sabay ang amo at ang alipin niya kumain.

Oh how much i hate that term "Alipin." I feel so low with that word.

He's leaning on the island counter, tinitignan ang ginagawa ko. Nang matapos ay akmang iiwan ko na siya nang bigla niya akong hinigit sa braso.

"Are you avoiding me again?" he grimmed.

I sighed and shook my head.

"Hindi."

"Oh really? 'cause your actions says otherwise." mariing sambit niya.

Umiling ako.

"Wala nga, i'm just tired matutulog na ako."

Inalis ang pagkakahawak niya saakin saka siya tinalikuran. The confusion in his eyes are evident before i turn my back on him.

I am just really tired, I want this to be done. I don't want to be involve with him anymore after this. I've felt a lots of emotion just for months and that's because of him.

"Nakikita kong nahihirapan ka sa pag-iwas mo sakaniya."

Napalingon ako kay Marie. I just frowned.

"I mean-- Look at you! You looked so gloomy, it doesn't suit you at all! Para kang hindi si Chloe!" she exclaimed.

"I'm just exhausted." i said.

She sighed heavily.

"Chloe... i know this is your first time to feel something like this, it's new to you 'cause you've never been in love before, ngayon lang."

Natigilan ako. Well, she's right.

"Nasasaktan ka, i also know that. It's normal to feel pain when you are in love but what you have to do is to be strong no matter what happen, hindi ako sanay na ganito ka."

It's not that easy. Gaya nga nang sinabi niya, this is the first time i fell for someone and it's hard for me to cope up with this.

Nagpaiwan ako kay Marie sa soccerfield. I don't know. Recently, naging favorite place ko na 'to, i can breathe fresh air here, mas mapayapa dahil kakaunti lang ang tao unless may soccer game or training.

"Malungkot ka ata?"

It's Andrex again.

"Wala kang pakealam." sinipat ko siya.