The Lonely.

For Tony.

The day you left I thought it was over.
I was so lost it took forever just to be sober,
I know you said it wasn't my fault,
but I can't help but feel that I had done wrong.
The day you left me I was close to the end,
it was the end of the world and I had lost my only friend.
No one every told me that god, can do terrible things.

She looked at me with her big brown eyes,
She asked, "Did you know my dad when he was alive?"
I nodded and said "Yes I do."
And that night I started thinking of you.
She looked at me and asked "Was he kind? Can you tell me what was he like."
I thought for a sec
about what to say next.
I said, "Sweetheart let me tell you about this amazing man. He was the kindest person that I ever known and even if you were a stranger he'd still hold your hand.
He worked to make everyone laugh,
but he had a sadness that no one knew he had.
There was only one time I saw him cry,
and that was the day he lost you in his sight.
Even still he made everyone smile,
despite having lost his only child.
He took care of me and helped me stand up,
having his kindness was more than enough.
He went on as best he could for everyone else,
but then he forgot to take care of himself.
Then one day he lost it all,
he fell of of his throne and the world became so small.
The day we lost him was my one regret,
the look in his eyes, I still can't forget.
I tried to stop him but something went wrong,
he held my hand and said, "This isn't your fault."
He said, "I think I did everything, I gave up practically all of me. I had a good life but I hate this world, the only thing I did right was you two girls.
I'm sorry I couldn't do more, you see I wasn't a good person before.
Now please take care of yourself and remember to smile, please say 'hello' to my only child."
He closed his eyes for the last time,
and that was the worst night of my life.
So darling please remember this,
you're father was the most amazing thing.
He was better than Superman he didn't need a cape,
just know that he was one of the unknown greats.
So when you wonder about who he was,
just remember you were his first love.
He loved you with all of his heart,
and the day he lost you tore him apart.
Just remember if he were here he'd do anything for you and that is the truth."

I look at her and I see you.
Sometimes I hold on to your old jacket that you left in my room.
Not a day goes by that I don't close my eyes and see your face.
Even if I know you're in a better place.