I Want To Do Bad Things With You (BoyxBoy)

(12) I Want To Do Bad Things With You (boyxboy)

I Want To Do Bad Things With You

Chapter 12

Once Jace was done taking care of my bruises, he cuddled into my arms and we soon fell asleep. It was one of the best nights of sleep I have had in a long time and when I woke up the next morning with Jace in my arms, I couldn’t help but smile. He looked so peaceful and happy which is something I haven’t seen in a long time.

I looked over at my clock and saw that it was time to get up. I wasn’t sure if Jace was planning on going to school or not but I woke him up anyway, wanting to give him the choice.

“Jace,” I whispered softly as I ran my finger down his cheek. His eyes fluttered open and as soon as they landed on me his lips turned up into a big smile.

“Morning,” he whispered softly, curling his fingers into my hair.

“Morning,” I replied as I leaned forward and pressed my lips gently against his before pulling away again.

Jace decided that we should go to school. I wasn’t so sure if it was a good idea for him to return so soon after everything that happened but he insisted that I must go and that he would be fine and didn’t want to miss too much work.

We ended up eating breakfast at McDonalds and then headed to school together. It felt kind of strange since we haven’t’ done anything like it for the last year. It felt good though and although Jace said that he would walk so that nobody at school noticed anything strange, I refused. We are together now and I honestly don’t care what anybody says or thinks. It’s their problem and they will have to deal with it if they don’t like it.

I could tell that Jace was nervous as we pulled into the school parking lot.

“What’s wrong?” I asked, turning to him and grabbing a hold of his arm before he could get out of the car.

“Nothing,” He stated but the look in his eyes gave him away.

“Tell me, please,” I asked, wanting to help him. I hate seeing him like this and since I have to deal with the fact that it is my fault that he was sad for an entire year I am sure as hell going to try my best to make him happy now, no matter what it takes.

“I don’t want you to have to suffer because of me. We should just keep things as they were when we are at school. If anybody asks you can just tell them that your parents forced you to give me a lift,” Jace stated, pulling his arm out of my hand.

“No, why would I want to do that?” I asked, not liking the idea at all.

 “Because it would be easier for you… and for me,” he answered, smiling weakly.

“I don’t care about it being easy, I’m not going to just ignore you,” I stated, not wanting to ever go back to ignoring Jace again, even if it was just pretend.

“Please, just do it for me,” he half begged, desperation clear in his eyes and I just couldn’t say no.

“Ok,” I agreed but I didn’t like the idea at all and I couldn’t quite understand why he would want to do it anyway.  I highly doubt that he cares what anybody thinks of him since they’ve all been treating him like crap for the last year anyway.

“I really don’t like this,” I stated and then got out of the car. I waited for Jace to get out as well and then locked it and walked away from him like he had asked me to. I couldn’t stop myself from looking over my shoulder every now and then though. The first time he was still standing at my car and he gave me a reassuring smile but when I looked back the second time he was making his way to the other side of the school, acting normal, as if nothing had changed between us.

Seeing him act like that hurt, and I couldn’t help but wonder if he regretted everything that had happened between us.

The day dragged by and by the time the final bell rang I was more than relieved. I needed to talk to Jace, I wanted to hold him in my arms and ask him what the hell is going on and why he wants to do this.

Jace met me at my car and greeted me when he got in but other than that he didn’t speak to me at all. The silence was killing me and by the time we got to his house I couldn’t take it anymore.

“Please tell me what‘s going on,” I begged, turning to face him as I shut down my car.

“Nothing,” he replied again without looking at me as he got out of the car.

I followed him into his house, my heart aching as I wondered if I had done something wrong. He went straight to the kitchen and dug some crisps out of one of the cupboards. I waited a second as I took a deep breath and then walked up to him, placing one hand on each side of the counter, trapping him between my arms with his back to me.

“Please just tell me what’s going on,” I whispered and I could feel his body stiffen from my presence.

“It’s just that I don’t want you to have to suffer. We’ve only got one year left of school and if we come out of the closet you’ll be ridiculed and hated.  I’m not worried about myself but I don’t t want you to be treated like that,” Jace replied, his voice slightly shaking.

“You don’t have to worry about me, I’ll be fine,” I whispered softly, leaning close to his ear, causing him to shiver.

“Everybody will hate you,” he said, placing his hands on mine as I pushed my body tightly against his.

“I don’t care,” I replied and then softly started placing kisses down his neck.

“I know you don’t, but I do,” he replied softly.

“Don’t,” I whispered into his ear before continuing to nibble on his neck.

“Please just consider it, we can still be together, we’ll just keep it a secret for now, at least until school is over,” Jace said, making me a bit angry.

Why wouldn’t he want the world to know we are together? I mean, I know he is just trying to protect me but I don’t need protection, I just want to be with him.

“I’ll think about it,” I stated reluctantly, understanding what he is trying to do.

He seemed relieved at the fact that I agreed but I still wasn’t happy with it. When I admitted that I love him for the first time I also made a decision that I wasn’t going to be one of those people who hide who they really are. I love him and I’m not afraid to show it to the world.

I placed a few more kisses down his neck and then pulled away.

“Come on, let’s go get some lunch,” I stated, grabbing the crisps and throwing them back in the cupboard.

“I don’t have any money,” Jace, said as he turned around, looking slightly embarrassed.

“”It’s on me,” I replied, grabbing his hand and pulling him out of the house.