I was laying down in my room, tears streaming my face. I couldn't believe I just gave up one of my biggest secrets. I groaned as I heard knocking on the door.
"Go away." I stated.
But instead of listening to me, they entered anyway. I heard whoever it was sigh as I put my face in my pillow.
"Nialler? Are you okay?" I wiped the tears off my face, and looked up at our drummer, Josh.
"Oh, yeah, I'm fine mate, just a bit homesick." I easily lied. Thankfully he bought it.
"Wanna go to a movie? To keep your mind off it?" He asked carefully. I gave him a grateful smile and said that I'd be down in a few.
In theory, his suggestion did work, the movie did get my mind off things, but just not for what he had in mind, After the movie we went out to McDonalds for a bite to eat. Josh was now in the living room with the rest of the guys.
I pulled out my iPhone and connected my head phones. Turning up my music the loadest it could go. I sighed deeply as Breathe Me by Sia came on. That song always made me cry. I wrapped my arms around my knees and tried not to, before realizing that was useless. I felt the tears leak from my eyes, and went over to my bathroom. With the music still plugged into my ears, I grabbed my blade from under the sink and dug it into my wrist. I winced as the pain came, the stinging sensation that I was ashamed to say I was addicted to. Suddenly I was pulled back to reality and counted the marks I made 17. I felt the room start spinning and I slid down the wall. 17. I was so ashamed of myself. I grabbed a pen and paper, and started writing a note to the boys, then I grabbed a bottle of pills. I downed them with a bottle of gin, and quickly felt light headed and soon saw darkness.
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Niall's Biggest Secrets
Fanfictionomg, i wrote this and middle school and I'm cringing so hard. I'm so sorry oh my god. All of Niall's life, he was insecure and bullied. To top that, he also had Dyslexia and he was depressed. Now Niall is in One Direction, but the pain never ended...
