Scars

Chapter 26

(Thanks so much everyone for reading! I really wish we still had as much readers as we did in the beginning, but we are thankful for you all that have stuck with it!)

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CARLYS POV

Me and Zayn are hiding under my duvet covers. His arms are wrapped around my waist. He is dozing off to sleep and his eyes flutter closed. It is 11:00. My mum will be home in an hour. I wish he could sleep here. I grab my phone out of my back pocket trying to make as less movement as possible, not to wake Zayn. I press the call button on my moms contact. It rings twice before she answers.

"Hello." My mom answers quick and nervous sounding.

"Um, hi mom when are you getting home?"

"Uh, two hours. Things are crazy at the hospital."  She says.

"Okay. Text me when you're almost home so I don't have to worry."

"Okay." She hangs up.

That was....strange. She sounded so nervous. I didnt even hear any voices in the backround. I push my thoughts to the side. I lay down facing Zayn. I place my hand on his cheek, lightly tracing his jawline. He looks so peaceful while he's asleep. I smile small just looking at him. His eyes flutter open.

"I'm sorry." I say, embarrassed that he found me just, staring at him. I look away from him and my cheeks flush.

He smiles, "Its okay, I like it." His voice is raspy from sleep.

"You like that I totally creeped on you, by staring?" I laugh.

"Yes, Its cute." he sweetly smiles.

My cheeks are definantly a bright shade of red. I lick my lips and bite down. My heart is beating faster. He has done so many things but the smallest things make me blush.

My thoughts are interrupted by Kaylee walking in. Her eyes widen but then shrink down to normal size. Zayn's back is turned so he can't see her, but I can. Kaylee smiles then leaves the room. I'm going to have to talk to her, oh god.

"What time is it babe?" Zayn asks breaking the silence. He burries his face into my neck, I cringe but don't pull away. His eye lashes tickle against my neck. He kisses my neck as I dig my phone out of my pocket.

"Almost 12." I say. Before I can finish he gets up and locks my door and simply lays back into my neck again.

"Why did you do that?" I ask.

He shrugs not saying a word. My heart aches for him. I don't know whats going to happen, but we cant really do anything with Kaylee and Taylor in the other room.

He plants light kisses on my neck. I tilt my head to the side to give him more access. His hands graze the small of my back, skimming the waistband of my jeans. My arm is wrapped around his waist. 

His body shifts and is hovering over top of me. Oh. He suprises me by only kissing my forehead lightly.

I am startled by my front door, downstairs opening.

"Hey girls I'm home!" my mom yells. Shit.

"Zayn get out." I say, trying to lift myself from underneath him.

"Please, let me stay." he mumbles into my neck.

"No you can't. Up!" I demand. I want him to stay so badly, but I don't know what my mom would do if she saw us alone in here now.

I sit up and he sits up with me. I lead him to my balcony. I open the doors, the cool wind pushes my hair from my face. I turn around to see him staring at me, his eyes full of desire.

He grabs my waist and pushes my hips into the railing of my ledge. His thumbs rest on my cheeks and the other four spanned across to my neck, his hands forcing me to tilt my head up. His hips playfully grind on mine.

"Stop." I laugh, pushing his hips away from mine.

"I love you." he grins, a cheeky one.

I kiss his cheek without another word. His eyes change from desire to disappointment, but he walks down the ladder anyways. I know why he was disappointed. Its because I didnt say I love you back. There isn't a reason that I didn't say it. I just don't know yet, I'm still scared. I stare out on my balcony, thinking.

"I miss you!" he smiles, walking away from my house.

"I miss you!" I yell back watching him disappear.

"Carly." I hear my mom say behind me.

"Hi mom." I smile and hug her, hoping to god she didn't realize Zayn's car parked on the other side of the street.

"Was that Zayn's car parked across the street?" She asks, crap spoke too soon.

"No." I say trying not to look guilty.

"Oh well, it looks like it." She says.

"So where did you go tonight?" I ask, changing the subject. I decide to bring up her nervousness on the phone earlier.

"The hospital, I told you that already." She says smiling nervously.

"Hmm. I dont think so. You aren't aloud to take personal calls at the hospital." I just remembered.

"Well they let me this time." She say, breaking eye contact with me.

I look at her with narrow eyes.

"Okay! I was with a guy." She gives up.

"Mom!" I gasp, not a bad gasp but kind of a neutral thing. I don't know if I'm ready for a new boy in her life. Paul just died because of me like 6 months ago.

"He's just a friend though. Im still not over Paul, your stepfather." She hangs her head down.

I can't help but to feel bad for her. I'm just happy she's willing to see other guys after Paul died... because of me..

"Mom, I-I'm sorry." Tears don't fall but they are struggling to stay in my eyes.

"For what?" She looks at my and tilts my chin up with her index finger.

"F-for killing Pa-" I am at lost for words. I cant bring myself to say his name. My head hangs down and the tears are falling.

"Hey, hey. You did not kill him!" She sternly says. Honesty is showing in her eyes.

(Ive been kinda busy and I'm trying to make the chapters longer so that why it took so long! Love you all xo! -elissa)