Scars

Chapter 5

I stood there waiting for him to explain. He put his head down and broke into tears. Even though I was pissed at him, I couldn't just watch him cry.

"What is it Zayn? Why are you crying?" I asked.

"You just don't understand. My love for you is out of this world, but..." He explained.

"But? But what Zayn? Tell me." I replied.

"I love Hannah too. I know you want to be with me. But its just.. I don't know." He said.

"For God sake Zayn, I lost my virginity to you!" I yelled.

I turned around, I walked into my bathroom, I started to cry. Zayn followed me.

"Get away from me! You don't care what I have to say!" I blurted out at him.

He was still by me. He started to move the hair out of my face. He wiped away the tears. He made me feel special. I couldn't stay mad at him forever.

"Look." I said.

I started to lift up my sleeve, so he could see. His face got red when he noticed the cuts. He touched them gently. It burned, I could feel every move he was making. We were caught up in the moment. Suddenly when I received a text from Liam.

"Can we talk please?" He said.

I didn't know if I wanted to or not. I was broken by both boys. A part of me did and another didn't.

"Yes, later." I replied.

Zayn was staring at me. He came closer to me and his lips pressed against mine. It brought back memories from last week. Giving me the same feeling of being wanted.

"Zayn, stop. You don't mean anything. Im not just going to let you do this to me." I said.

"What do you mean?" He asked.

"I won't let you do this to me again. I can't take it. Your with Hannah Zayn." I said.

"I will do whatever it takes to be with you!" He answered.

"You don't and shouldn't have to do that. If you are happy, then be with her!" I said.

"Carly, I'm honestly not happy with her. I want you, and only you." He said.

My mind suddenly cleared. I believed him. My eyes filled with tears. No one had ever talked to me like that before. He had a special place in my heart. Zayn was the one. I could lay in his arms forever if I had the choice.

Zayn, started to grab my hips. My shirt was lifted up and I unzipped his jacket quickly. He lifted me up against the wall, and my legs were wrapped around his waist. I felt his hands squeeze my thigh. He was kissing my neck and lowered to my chest. My neck rolled back and I let out a moan.

We fell back on to the bed. He unzipped my pants and started to pull them off, leaving me in my bra and underwear. I unbuckled his belt and slid his pants off.

"Are we really doing this again?" He smirked.

I nodded at him with a smile. I unbuttoned his shirt. He was left only in his boxers. My legs wrapped around his waist again. He was fiddling on my back with my bra strap. My pretty laced bra fell to the floor. He pulled his boxers to the floor.

He grabbed something from his jeans and I instantly knew what it was. It was a condom.

He put it on. I was still a little nervous, even though we've done this before. He grabbed my underwear and the material was on the floor along with my bra.

I wasnt comfortable with my body, but he made my body feel so perfect.

He gripped my hips. He moved lower and lower. As he was rolling into me, it brought back memories from last time. He kissed me and gripped the back of my neck.

He started to come out of me. It hurt, but I would take the pain for him.

He layed beside me on the bed. We were both out of breath and breathing heavy.

He laughed. "What are you laughing at?" I asked.

"For someone thats never done this before you sure are good at it." Zayn said winking at me.

I giggled a little. "Shut up." I said playfully hitting him. He laughed at me.

I got out of the bed. "Where are you going?" He asked me disappointingly.

"To go take a shower." I replied. I cracked the bathroom door and blew a kiss to him and shut the door.

I turned the water on and closed my eyes. The water was running through my hair.

I opened my eyes and saw Zayn in the shower.

I jumped and my back went up against the wall.

"Shit Zayn." I said scared to death.

He laughed at me getting scared.

"What the hell are you doing?" I asked him.

"I want to take a shower with you baby." He said happily.

"No!" I yelled and hit him with a washcloth. "Get out!"

"Carly we just had sex. Let me take a shower with you." he whinely begged.

"Why Zayn?" I asked him.

He walked up to me and kissed my neck and whispered in my ear, "Because you're so sexy." he growled.

I laughed as he sent chills through my body. "Finnnne." I whined.

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After the shower we laid my bed together.