painter (tronnor ; completed)

track 12 - seven months

7 M O N T H S L A T E R

"how are you?" he says, sipping the perfectly tempered coffee.

"better. you?" he asks back, with a cup of black coffee. always black coffee.

"good."

"good."

both boys smile.

"have you been painting?" the first asks again.

are you taking your medicine?

have you had an episode?

have you hurt yourself?

have you thought about hurting yourself?

"always. i have a whole exhibit at the broad right now."

"no shit, that's awesome."

"yeah, yeah i guess."

they both sip their coffee.

"have you talked to anybody?" the blue eyes of the boy asked, burning into the green eyes of his company.

"from the hospital? um, i met with savannah." they'd drank black coffee, of course.

"really?"

"yeah."

"cool."

"yeah."

the conversation pauses again. the pauses are becoming more and more comfortable. like they used to be.

"have you thought about what i said? that last day?" the painter asks.

"every second."

"oh. and?"

"you were right."

"oh. well, i've-"

"connor, i'm seeing someone or i- it's..."

"wh-who?" how?

"he's good. nice."

"do you feel safe with him?"

troye nods, slowly. uncertainly.

"no," connor says, "you don't."

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tears fill troye's eyes. "i want to feel safe, connor."

"i'd do anything to keep you safe. i'd do anything for you."

(i'd do anything to keep you safe. i'd do anything for youi'd do anything to keep you safe. i'd do anything for youi'd do anything to keep you safe. i'd do anything for youi'd do anything to keep you safe. i'd do anything for youi'd do anything to keep you safe. i'd do anything for youi'd do anything to keep you safe. i'd do anything for you)

he'd paint every wall in the world, he'd paint the sun and the moon.

"baby, i'm going to paint the world for you."

xx