It's been a week without Jeff...
It's something I can't do anymore...
I need him... He's my painkiller...
I don't want to be without him
Ugh it's killing me....
I'm doing this now it's the only way...
I ran to the bathroom and closed the door behind me.
I threw the cabinet door open and grabbed A bottle of pills....
I'm sorry Jeff
1 pill...
For being useless
2 pills...
For being bullied
3 pills
For existing
4 pills
For the panic attacks
5 pills
For the knife
6 pills
7 pills
8 pills
9 pills
10 pills
One after the other
Everything around me went blurry, my head started spinning, my stomach started burning, my screams of pain echoed through the house.
My last thought was
I'm sorry Jeff....
Before hitting my head on the bathtub.
As spots of black started to cover my vision I saw my mom burst through the doors looking down at the empty bottle of pills and her daughter half conscious on the floor.
I saw her break down crying, a phone at her fingertips...
The last sentence I could mutter was
"I-I'm sorry..."
As darkness beat me...
Hey guys Jess here
So I probably have some explaining to do
Basics the lack of uploads are due to the fact that I have been in England For the past week so I apologise but I hope you like this chapter
- Jess
