Chapter 32
I woke up terrified. My heart was beating faster than I thought was possible and tears were streaming down my face. I walked out of my room but Brian and my parents weren’t home yet. I need someone. I started panting. I was beyond terrified.
I had no other option.
With shaky legs, I jumped out of my window and landed in Lucas’s dark room. He was in his bed, sleeping but when he heard the noise I made while coming in, he sat up in his bed.
“What do you want?” his voice was as cold as ice, making me flinch.
This was a bad idea. I shouldn’t have come to him. He made it clear that he doesn’t want to be my friend.
I didn’t reply. I couldn’t say anything and I couldn’t move.
He sighed in frustration and switched the light on.
When he looked at my face, his eyes widened in shock,
“W-what happened?” he asked. And that’s all it took for me to break down again. I didn’t care that I broke the promise I made to myself about not crying in front of anyone. I couldn’t hold the tears in after having that nightmare. It was different from the ones I usually get. It was worse and scarier.
I was now sitting on his bedroom floor, hugging my legs and sobbing. I didn’t care that I was barely wearing a pair of shorts and a small tank top. I didn’t care about anything. All I thought about was Marcus.
I wanted to run away. I didn’t care where I would go; I just wanted to run till I pass out. I wanted to forget everything right now.
I couldn’t move and Lucas was still standing there motionless with a blank expression on his face.
He didn’t care.
He didn’t want me there.
He didn’t want me to be his friend anymore.
These three simple thoughts finally sunk in and I ran. I didn’t jump back to my room because I don’t think I’ll make it. Instead I ran out of his room and out of his house. He didn’t even follow me or call my name. He didn’t know how much I still trusted him for crying in front of him. And I knew for sure that if he asked what happened one more time I would’ve told him everything. I would’ve told him about my biggest secret that no one, except for Ashley, knows about.
I ran in the darkness. I knew it was dangerous to be alone in the dark streets, barely wearing any clothes but right now I couldn’t care less.
Every once in a while I would get a nightmare about Marcus but Brian and my parents were always there for me when I did. But this time there was no one and plus it was the worst nightmare I have ever had. Was it really my fault?
Was I the reason why Marcus died?
Was it my fault because I didn’t check on him for thirty minutes?
Was it my fault because I didn’t hear him fall off his bike?
Maybe I knew all along that it was my fault.
I was responsible for his death.
I was babysitting him and I let him slip out of my hands.
I’m sorry Marcus. I’m so sorry Marcus.
I had no idea where I was. I was running to god knows where. My lungs were on fire and I knew that soon, my legs wouldn’t be able to hold me anymore and my lungs wouldn’t be able to carry anymore air. I was going to pass out soon.
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