Shawn Mendes Imagines

Love On Paper

I impatiently pace the living room floor waiting for our mail to arrive. He hasn't written to me for two weeks now and I have been doing this for the past five days already.

After about twenty minutes the post arrives and his letter with it. It was about time. I grab the taxes and see an envelope with his handwriting on it. I grab it as quickly as possible letting other envelopes fall to the ground and ran up to my room, big grin on my face.

I jump on the bed, tearing the envelope open. The first thing I notice is a CD sample. Firstly I take out the letter to read what the CD is for.

"Hey sunshine!

I'm so sorry for not being able to write to you or skype. I have been so busy with recording my first EP!! I bet it's a huge surprise for you since I haven't told you anything about it. I wanted to wait until it was ready.
You are the first person outside the studio to ever hear it! So be flattered haha.

Anyways there is going to be four songs on the EP but there is one extra one I wrote just for you. It's also on the CD I sent you. It's called This Is What It Takes. The song and you mean so much to me so I would be glad to know what you think of the song (and ofcourse the rest of the mini-album).

I really missed writing with you but I'm sure you understand why I wasn't able to write you back.

I guess I'm really falling for you. No I know I am. Y/N I love you! It might seem too rushed for you but I just needed to finally tell you about my feelings. Our dream of meeting has to come true. I would do anything to be with you. I'm going to figure it out.

With love,
Shawn"

I stare at the cursive letters on the paper with my mouth open. It has finally happened. He he truly likes me that much. I feel butterflies, the ones I have never felt before form in my stomach as I think about us being together. Is my dream really coming true? After two long years.

I stand up from the bed and grab the CD putting it in my CD-player. As the first note starts playing I have already fallen in love with the song. I check from the case of the CD for the name of the song. It was called Life Of The Party. I listened all the songs, which were the most beautiful songs I had ever heard. I reached This Is What It Takes as the last song of the list.

I focused more on the words that in the other songs. I couldn't believe he had written this about us and for me. It was the sweetest thing anyone could do. I was falling more and more in love with him.

For the next month I listened to the CD non-stop. I had also sent him a letter back, waiting for a reply but I never got one.

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More than a year passed and he never tried to contact me again. I did keep up on him, he got famous after releasing the EP, has now over six million fans, went on multible tours and is currently on his own tour, he also released an album. He put This Is What It Takes on it too. No one will ever know it's about me. He probably has even forgotten about me.

He was having a show in my hometown and I decided to go, just to see what he's about.

The day of the show was here and went to the venue early, waiting in the line to get into the concert hall. Screaming fans everywhere made me feel sick. Suddenly they started yelling Shawn's name at the top of their lungs and I turned around to see brown-headed tall boy walk towards the crowd of fans. He hadn't changed much, only had gotten more muscular and handsome.

I took a step back as the fans behind me pushed theirselves in front to get pictures with Shawn. It took ten minutes for Shawn to reach the centre of the waiting line. I watched him carefully, memorizing all the beautiful features of him that I had lost with him. I was still staring at him when he approached the three girls in front of me.

Our eyes met for a mere second and I turned my head away, pretending to search something from my leather jacket pocket. I dared to look up again in about two minutes and luckily he had moved on.

I didn't go to the meet and greet and only went to watch the show. It was amazing to be honest. All the memories of him singing covers on his youtube and telling me in his letters how much his singing had improved came flashing back at me.

It hurt knowing we didn't talk anymore and he probably didn't care about me. I felt tears roll down my cheeks. He was singing his last song for the show but I couldn't take it anymore.

I pushed fans aside as I was trying to rush out of the venue. I got yelled at but I didn't care. I got out of the hall and breathed in fresh air to clear my head.

I felt sudden exhaustion. I rushed over to the parking lot and rest my back against the first car I saw. I never should've come here. I only hurt myself. I needed to get over him and move on with my life.

I noticed a figure approaching the car and hoped that the person would turn away or walk pass me. Since it was already dark outside I couldn't see the person's face. Fortunately the person turned away just before reaching the car.

I breathed out and relaxed. I decided to start moving back home when suddenly someone greeted me. I looked up, scream escaping my mouth. A tall figure, with a cap on and a hoodie towered over me.

"No need to scream," the boy chuckled,"I'm not going to kill you or something."

His voice sounded familiar and I was still staring at him trying to recognize his face in the dim light.

"That's my car by the way," he pointed on the black Jeep behind me. "Would you be kind and let me in my car," he chuckled again.

"Yeah," I muttered letting him to his car. I was still standing there when he entered the car. The street light turned on and the light fell on his face.

"Shawn?" I breathed out in shock.

He looked at me with confusement on his face.

"Do I know you?" he asked after staring at me for minutes.

"I-I," I stuttered, not knowing what to say, " you looked at me at the waiting line before the show, maybe you remember me from there?" I stared at the ground.

"I know I watched you, you looked very familiar. You reminded me of a girl I used to know," he muttered.

"Oh, well I should get going," I aimlessly threw my hand towards the venue.

Shawn nodded and smiled at me for the last time. I turned and started to walk away. I was weak, I should have told him about me and what I thought about the situation. I waisted the opportunity but maybe it was for the best. He didn't deserve it. He didn't deserve to know I still cared about him. He probably feels guilty for leaving me on hold back then. I am going to move on. It was something to learn from but for Shawn, the memory of me will always stay haunting.

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I have no ideas for writing and the ideas I have suck as you can see from the recent imagines. If you do have any please help me out and send me requests or just some recommendations on what to write. There will be updates more frequently too if I had ideas so go brainstorming in my private messages!!

I'm completely shaken by the last incidents in Florida. The world we are living in is mad and cruel, there is no reason to do these horrible things. Something has to change so please anyone who's reading this, live your life to the fullest. Be happy and be kind to anyone. Do the right things in life and care for your close ones. That's already a start of something good.

Love you, xx