Loving the Barumbad-ass (Completed) 8

Chapter 15.

Confrontation/Conversation...

"Hindi ko po Alam. -she simply said

"Kung walang sapat na rason siyang binigay sayo Bakit hinayaan mo siyang lumayo sa iyo? Tapos ngayon Ikaw Ang nahihirapan sa naging desisyon mo Celestine? You're no longer the jolly Celestine I know, yung gutom lagi at nanghihingi o bibili ng pagkain, yung Hindi distracted at malungkot, yung masayahin. Akala mo siguro Hindi namin napapansin iyon ng mommy mo? Malayo man kame o kapag magkasama tayo laging kang matamlay at malungkot. Tama ba Ang naging decision mo? Your selfish. -mahabang saad ng daddy Niya at uminom ng tubig

"Kesa naman po si Vince Ang mahihirapan, marahil nga po selfish ako. Anong magagawa ko Kung iyon Ang sinasabi ng isip ko dad? I know there's something wrong with Vince, he may just want to protect me from whatever it is, he wants me out of something at ayaw akong masaktan at idamay. I let him go and stand on my own decision Kasi in the first place naramdaman Kong Tama Ang ginawa ko at naging decision ko. That night I haven't have confirmation yet that I love him, saka ko pa narealized when he's gone. -mahabang saad Niya habang naglalandasan Ang mga luha sa pisngi

After two months ngayon Niya lang nilabas Ang saloobin Niya na kinipkip Niya sa sarili, she didn't share to anyone but to keep only for herself. She doesn't want them to know, she doesn't want them to question her verdict Pero Mali siya. The more she keeps that to her own mas lalong bumibigat Ang loob at pakiramdam Niya.

Right now, having this confrontation and conversation with her mom and dad kasabay ng mga luha Niya ay Ang paunti unting pag gaan ng loob Niya.

Kailangan Niya lang pala ilabas para Hindi bumigat, kailangan Niya palang sabihin para may mag a-advice sa kanya. Ganun lang pala ka simple iyon Pero mas ginawa niyang Mahirap, mas pinahirapan Niya lang Ang sarili niya.

"You make me so proud of you celestine. -naluluha na ding wika ng daddy

Mas lalo siyang umiyak sa Sinabi nito, Hindi maganda Ang umiyak sa harap ng pagkain Pero walang pakundang sa pag agos ng kailangan luha.

Patawad po panginoon.

"You know how to stand kapag Alam Mong nasa Tama ka, Mali Ako nung Sinabi Kong selfish ka, your selfless Dahil mas pinili Mong mahirapan ka kesa sa Iba. You made me more proud with the decision you chose. You are now the woman that I wanted you to become. I'm so proud of you celestine. -dad

Tahimik lang Ang mommy Niya na nakikinig sa kanila ng daddy Niya, she even caught her wiping small tears.

"I'm sorry dad. While I'm holding everything inside not sharing it to you and mom or even to my friends, I distracted my self at tinuon sa thesis Ang attensyon ko Pero Hindi naman madaling kalimutan iyong sakit, Hindi madaling balewalain Kasi Hindi naman Ako manhid. It hurts but I have to endure the pain because it's the choice that I chose, and I have to suffer. I said I'm strong, kakayanin ko Pero Hindi pala. I'm weak. Naging mahina Ako lalo na't I find myself in love with him, when he left-- he took my strength, my soul, everything. He is my weakness aside from God, aside from you and mom.

"Your strong Celestine, it's the love that makes you weak. Love is always the center, love is always the cause of people's weakness. Maraming mahina pagdating sa pag-ibig, lahat mahina sa pag-Ibig. It's not just you-- everyone Celestine. Everyone. -mom

"I don't know if until when I can endure the pain, I don't know when my heart be fix from a shattered pieces, I don't know when will I move on. Maybe someday, somehow, eventually. But that's what I just only thought, nang malaman ko sa iyo kanina mom na nakita mo si Vince sa binyag kanina? I was lost. That I find myself home looking for you--- and you finally caught my actions. I find myself wanting to see him, Hindi Ako mapakali and something from deep within me na nabuhay upon hearing that he's here in Buenavista.

"Matagal ko ng Alam, babae din Ako Anak. I saw something between you and Vince since the day he voluntarily brought you to school nang tumirik yung sasakyan natin sa gitna ng daan. I saw love there, right at that day. I just want confirmation Kasi you never mention about, Hindi ka nakikipag kwentuhan sa akin about diyan and it makes me wonder. -mom

"Now that he is here, what will you gonna do? -kuway tanong ng daddy Niya

Napatigil siya dun, kumuha siya ng tissue at dahan dahang pinahid Ang basang mukha.

"I don't know dad. I love him but it's not good to go after him, I love him but it's not me to do the move, I love him but I will not go near him.

"Bakit naman? Kapag mahal mo Ang isang Tao Hindi mo na iniisip iyan, you don't mind whatever it is because all that matter is the one that you love-- winning back the one you love.

"Dad. We're strangers now. Since after that night. He asked that. He don't know me anymore, I don't know him either.

"What? Anong klaseng kasunduan iyan? -gulat na wika ng daddy Niya

"Vince really say that Celestine? -gulat ding saad ng mommy Niya

"Yes he did. Again, for my own good, he say. -tugon Niya at suminghot

"Ibang klase. Di kaya'y pinaglaruan lang ng aristocrat na iyon Ang damdamin mo? -dad

"Hindi dad. That night ibang Vince Ang nakita ko, it's the other side of him--- the soft one, vulnerable. Lahat ng pinakita Niya ng gabing iyon ay totoo, I can attest to that. I can see that everything is true lalo na't bakas na bakas sa mga mata Niya na nagsasabi siya ng totoo.

"Its too much to contain. -kuway buntung hiningang saad ng daddy Niya

"But--- I asked him to promised me one thing. -she paused

Nakita Niya Kung paano natigilan Ang parents niya, all eyes and ears into her. They didn't say a word Kaya tinuloy Niya Ang sasabihin,

"Na dapat Hindi na siya magpakita sa akin pa Dahil Kung magpakita siya, kailangan handa siyang saluhin ako at Hinding Hindi na siya makakawala pa sa akin.

"Damn it! That was a clever idea! -Sigaw ng daddy Niya

"You think? -she asked

"Of course! God. I didn't know that you would come up with that idea! Maliit lang Ang mundo Anak, Hindi malayong magkita kayong muli. -dad

"Specially now that he's here. -mom

"He is here in Buenavista, yeah. Parang so close yet so far. We're strangers, remember?