Thoughts! (At life's breaking point) COMPLETED.

A long way from home

I'm in the car with my social worker now, she told me her name was Alice much needed information(note the sarcasm) I soon got over the fact of loosing my mum... I guess it was because of how she treated me in a way I was still sad but I new I would get over that soon. It made me feel a bit better knowing a new life was ahead of me, Alice turned up the music because she could sense the awkwardness filling the air. The car ride was silent in a way I'm glad it was, it meant I had more time to think about my past in the sense of wanting to forget about what happened. Then it happened we arrived... At this moment I didn't know what to do or think, when we got to the front door Alice asked if I was ready, I just nodded awkwardly and waited for her to unlock the door. When I walked through the door Alice showed me to my room I was on my own, Alice said because I was the oldest I could have my own room. Which I'm glad about I'm not very good with people, when I unpacked what little I had I walked back down the stairs to find 6 other girls sitting around a table. Alice introduced me to all of them and I knew what she meant about the age difference. When I was finished meeting people it was getting late so I told Alice I was going to bed. When I woke up I checked the time it was only 7:30 but I got up because I didn't won't to stay in bed. I decided I was going to take a shower, so I got what stuff I needed and opens my door and walked down a spooky hallway till I got to the bathroom at the end of the hall. All of a sudden the feeling came back the need to inflict pain on myself, seeing a razor on the side of the bath I slowly picked it up and started to cut! I slowly felt a burning pain from the cuts. When I finished up in the shower it was already
8:00, I got dressed dryers my short brown hair and put it up into a messy ponytail and putting a little mascara on my green eyes. When I was ready I came down stairs to see a new face, there was a new girl about the same age as me. Alice can up to me and said this is Zoe she will be sharing a room with you, I give her an awkward smile and she just gives me a big fake smile back.
I walked back up stairs to see her following me in the corner of my eye, when I get to the room she pushed past me and just sits on her bed. I walk up to her and say are u ok? Trying not be be awkward, she hugs me from out of no were and says I just sore my mum die in hospital! A couple moments later she pulled away from the hug. And sighs I'm sorry I didn't mean to hug you I panicked. It's ok I said it's not your fault, then Alice nocked on the door and I say come in. She starts talking about school and how me and Zoe can be home schooled considering our conditions.