Bye, Bye Virginity

Chapter - 07

I looked back up at Damen as my smile grew wider. I had never felt so happy in my life, actually feeling like I belonged somewhere and that someone cared about me. I began to wave at Damen as I continued to walk toward him while wondering how he hadn't noticed me yet.

I narrowed my eyes as I watched Damen's pearl-white smile vanish from his face as his eyes fell upon me. Right away he turned his gaze away, looking back at his friends and trying to pretend like he hadn't seen me.

I was only a few feet away from them when I froze on the spot, staring at Damen in utter disbelief.

'After everything that happened last night, after me forgiving him for the second time, he was doing this again?' I tried to comprehend the illogicality of the situation, 'He was honestly going to act as if nothing happened?'

I felt a sharp pain in the bottom of my gut as my whole body began to heat up, I could honestly feel sweat begin to rise out of my pores. I stood there, staring at them while holding my breath. Well, not exactly holding my breath, it was more like I couldn't breathe altogether.

"Hey Dude...Why is Trent's little sister smiling and waving at you?" I heard Kevin ask Damen. I was still frozen motionless; watching and listening to them.

"Dude, she has some mad crush on me or something...It's kind of cute..." Damen lied, trying to laugh it off.

"More like creepy!" Candise cut in and turned toward me, shooting darts at me with her eyes. "I mean look at her, staring at us like that...Creepy!" She said as she wrapped her arms around Damen's neck and pulled him closer to her. "Too bad for her though...you're mine!" She exclaimed as she pressed her lips against Damen's.

That's when I finally turned my head away. I couldn't bear to see any more of this lewd display! It was weird how one second you could be the happiest person in the world and then in that exact second you could feel the complete opposite. I felt like a crashing ball had came flying down at me, smashing me into tiny bits and pieces. I always thought physical pain was bad; like it hurt, it really did...But physical pain was nothing compared to this. I couldn't breathe, my chest was burning and my stomach was clenching and causing me so much pain.

I began to repeat the same five words in my head,

'I'm Not going to cry...'

'I'm Not going to cry...'

'I'm Not Going..........'

But, I failed as I watched all my surroundings begin to grow blurry while my eyes filled up with water. I heard Candise, Tiffany and Jessica's laughter behind me as I began to run away. Waterfalls of hot angry tears rolled down my cheeks, making it impossible to see anything. I felt like I was going to pass out from the lack of oxygen. I couldn't breathe, but I continued to run anyway. I was just about to reach the steps that headed up to the school as I clenched my jaw shut, trying to force my cries down. I knew I couldn't stop the tears from flowing but I wasn't going to let the loud sobs escape my lips; not yet at least. Not until I was hidden somewhere away from everyone else.

I felt my left foot hit the back of my right heel as I tumble to the ground; my knee's sliding across the hard concrete walkway. I could feel the concrete ripping through my jeans before pealing the skin off of my knees. At that moment, I shouted a loud cry of pain from the fall, the embarrassment, the betrayal and, ultimately, the heartache.

I felt someone's arms wrap around my waist before pulling me up to my feet.

"Are you okay, Stasee?" A deep, sexy voice came from the person behind me. A voice I had never heard before and yet it made me forget all of my problems for that millisecond. I turned around to face him and, even though he was just a blurred image, I knew I didn't recognize him. My would-be saviour had short brown curly hair with sensitive dark brown eyes. He had a square set jaw and his face was completely clean cut. He wasn't anywhere near as muscular as Damen; I could tell he wasn't really into sports and just one of those naturally skinny guys with a little muscle tone.

Tears were still flowing out of my eyes, which only made me that much more embarrassed. I could feel blood oozing out of my knees as I turned quickly away from the boy. I finished running up the stairs and into the school. I sprinted through the hallways, pushing anyone out of my way as I did so. I heard a few rude comments about how weird I was and how me and Trent were so different, which only caused me to cry harder.

Finally, I made it to the girl's bathroom! I swung the door open and ran into a stall, slamming the door shut and locking it. There were a few girls in the bathroom doing their make-up in front of the mirrors.

"Oh...my...God..." I could hear a girl whisper to her friends, "Did you see her pants, all full of blood? Poor girl, maturing a little late, ain't she?"

"Eww!" One of her friends yelled as they all erupted into laughter.

'Oh Great!' I thought to myself, 'Things couldn't get any worse.'

I stared at the stall door as the overwhelming feeling of depression began to set in. Not only did I have to deal with rumours going around school about me being 'Damen's crazy stalker.' But, now everyone would be going around; saying that I got my period and that it leaked through!

'Honestly the blood is on my knees and legs, how would that be possible!' I just wanted to yell out, but I didn't.

Just last week I was a 'nobody' and no one ever noticed me. No one talked behind my back and everything was fine! Now, I was pretty much in love with Damen and yet I meant nothing to him. Soon, there would be horrible rumours going around the entire school about me and I couldn't prevent it.

'I just wish everything would go back to normal!' I thought to myself as I put the toilet seat down and sat on top of it.

I pulled my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. I rested my head on top of my bloody knees as my tears continued to flow down my face. Finally, I allowed my bitter sobs to escape my throat as I tried gulping down air between each cry. My tears leaked down my cheeks and I could taste the saltiness of them as they slipped into my mouth.