ACHES [Wattys Winner 2015]

Can't Sleep

Closing the pane of my windows to the world,

My eyes,

I try,

But those devil voices inside,

Don't let me.

I visit them, 

My monsters and fears.

The 'ME' sitting on my shoulders

Whispering into my ears,

Of how meagre I am!

It reminds me,

Nobody loves me.

It reminds me,

I don't matter.

It reminds me,

Whatever I do,

Nothing will ever be okay.

It reminds me, 

Life is dark and sad and alone,

Like the night sky is,

Even if it is full of stars.

It reminds me,

When I wake up,

In the tomorrow day,

It will be the same old torture and torment,

Through and again.

It reminds me,

Of whatever comes may,

Nothing will ever be okay.

So, I just toss and turn,

Trying to change directions,

Trying to count numbers,

Trying to listen to soporific music,

Trying to meditate.

But the 'ME' whispering 

Is more powerful than the me, 

Which wants to sleep.