Celestial Strings Tied To You

Chapter 04

But when we got to college, everything fell apart. He cheated.

And the same boy who once told me to keep things quiet was suddenly hard-launching his new girlfriend on Instagram like our story never existed. No hesitation. No shame.

I stayed quiet. I moved on. But he didn’t. He kept coming back. Showing up. Telling me things I didn’t ask to hear.

He even told me, "She's like you, Julie. I saw you in her." and he said that she had more time than me which is why he chose to be with her. I didn’t know what to feel in that moment. Was it supposed to be flattering? An apology? An excuse? I'm confused.

And now, there’s a post going around the university wall, saying I’m trying to ruin his relationship. Me. The same girl he betrayed. The same girl he keeps chasing behind her back.

But I’m not playing his game. I’m not trying to get him back. I just pity the girl he’s with. Because she doesn’t know she’s holding onto someone who doesn’t even know what love is.

Believe what you want but this is the truth. I know the truth and more importantly, I’m free from him.

So no, I didn’t plan on speaking. But there’s a  difference between staying silent and letting someone rewrite your story. And I’ve stayed silent long enough.

The moment I clicked the post button, my hands trembled. Not because of fear but because of guilt. I don't want to ruin someone else's peace for my peace but I don't have any other choice. And I'm even sorry for not being sorry to Rence.

I waited 30 minutes. Hinayaan ko munang kumalma ang sarili ko bago ko binuksan ang comment section.

“Ate dodged a walking red flag in Nike slides. Congrats, MVP ka ng moving on.”

“Ang tahimik ni ate pero nung nagsalita siya, wala na. Wasak 'yang idol niyo.”

"Ginawa ka ba namang template te."

“‘I saw you in her’??? Bro needs therapy not another girlfriend.”

“Gusto mo ng private? Ayan, public humiliation tuloy nakuha mo.”

“Ang lakas maka-Tupperware ni kuya. Lahat ng version ng truth tinatago.”

Tawang-tawa ako sa comments. Omg! I didn't expect na magiging ganito ang response ng schoolmates ko. I thought they're gonna attack me but it's the other way around.

"Sa current girl ni kuya!!! Basahin mo 'to bago pa huli ang lahat!"

"Coach, sub mo na si kuya. Emotional turnover na naman siya.”

"Bobo mo kuya. Na sayo na, pinakawalan mo pa."

“Kung may award sa gaslighting, si kuya na ang valedictorian.”

Nakakatawa! Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko at natawa na talaga ako ng malakas. Ang witty naman kasi ng comments nila. Heto, last na talaga. Matutulog na talaga ako after nito.

"Kung ako ‘yung current girl, nag-resign na ako. Wala akong time maging ‘shadow of the ex.’”

“Sana bago ka tumira ng 3 points, nagtira ka ng respeto.”

"Ewan ko nalang kung patawarin pa siya ng bago niyang gf."

“UPDATE: Si kuya dinampot ng coach. Violation daw ‘yung paggamit ng ex bilang rebound play.”

However, in the midst of those funny comments, there's one anonymous comment that stood out.

"You don’t have to carry the weight alone.
I’m here, even in the quiet moments no one sees."