It's not me who's crying, it's my soul

Chapter 19 - (dis) Closure

Nakauwi na ako ng 5:47am pagkatapos ng taping. Nagtataka ako kung bakit ang cold sa akin ni Rhian. Hindi naman siya ganito before.

Niready ko na ang bed ko. Para din kasi makapagpahinga ako. Natuwa ako sa pagpunta kila Cal, kahit na marami akong nakain sa bahay niya. Actually, it is fun being with Cally. Once you get to know her, it's like, she's the best thing that's ever happened to you. I can't even explain pero, that's the way she is.

Yaaaawn. I need to get some sleep. Masyadong nakakaoverwhelm ang nangyayari kanina. Cal's with me, pero, what is the real deal?

Kung magiging kami nga. Paano si Rhian? It's like, giving up on RaStro fans.

Pero, pwede namang ilihim, right?

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"Babe!" Jason called out. It's already 2 in the afternoon. I never thought that Jason will be here sa Gym. I was too busy doing sit ups nung tawagin niya ako.

He ran towards me. "Hey, kamusta ka na?" He asked, I just shook my head, and smiled to him. My day's great so maybe a few chit chat with him is not so bad. "Okay naman. I just need to grow some abs," tumigil ako and faced him, "like we used to do before." He smiled at me and said, "Labas kaya tayo, what do you think?"

Hmm. Should I? Or, should I?

"Sige! Treat mo ba ako, babe?" He smiled like the happiest man on earth.

So, this is it. I knew na, namiss ko nga si Jason, all of him.

Jason helped me sa pagtayo, slowly, medyo sumasakit abs ko. Wow, abs. Hahaha! "Careful, babe, slowly." He was being gentle, and I admit..

I do miss him.

Maybe it's just, maybe it's just I got this role that's why I'm falling for someone.. Someone that doesn't deserve me as well.

It's not bad to try it again with Jason, right?

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"So, where do you want to eat?" Jason asked, looking down on me. "Ikaw, bahala ka." Trying to hide a smile, which he noticed. It's kinda weird that I'm smiling by just hearing his voice. I mean, of course, I do miss him. But, there's also a side of me that's doubting.

"How about.. there. That restaurant." He pointed out his choice. I nodded and dragged him to the menu list. Well, as I can see, the food is great. "Okay, sige. Dito na lang tayo." I told him, and he smiled.

Jason called in for the waiter.

"For two." Ever so polite, I almost forgot what he did to me. Isn't that a good thing?

As I walk down, letting Jason go first, I noticed someone.

"You can sit here, babe." Jason gestured, he pulled his chair back to let me sit. Hindi ko maalis ang tingin ko sa napansin ko. After that, Jason sat as well. "May I take your order, sir?" Jason and the waiter continues to blabber, while I'm stuck, still analyzing if my eyes are just playing with me.

"Rhi, what's your order?" He asked, patiently waiting. "Ah, kung ano na lang yung sa'yo. I bet that's a great dish." He nodded, and the waiter repeated the order. "Babe, I'll just go to the comfort room." I nodded kay Jason, reminding him to wash his hands after.

I was simply looking at them. They both do look familiar. But, I really want to make sure. I don't want to depend everything in my guts. But, this is bad. This is, really, really bad.