It's not me who's crying, it's my soul

Chapter 9 - Eifersucht

*ring riing riiing*

"Mmmh.", I stretched slowly, not opening my eyes yet.

I slowly opened my eyes, at pagdilat ko, Glaiza's face, is few inches away from me. Dahan dahan akong gumalaw, and reached out for Glaiza's phone. Suddenly, she moved forward habang kinukuha ko ang phone niya para patayin ang alarm.

Kung hindi ako napaatras, I'm sure, mapapadaplis ang lips namin.

12:13pm I am still thinking kung gigisingin ko na ba si Glaiz or not. I can see na she is exhausted eh. "Glaiz?"

"Y-yes?", nagstretch siya, yawned, and leaned closer to me. "Glaiza, may mall show tayo." I spoke seriously, trying to make her feel giddy.

Nabalikwas si Glaiza sa bed. "Ha? Oo nga pala! Rhi, mauuna na ako maligo ha?"

"Hahaha! Sige go.", she prepared her stuff. Nagmamadali siya, like literally. "Glaiz, you don't need to feel giddy or something. 12:16pm pa lang." She stared at me habang inaayos ko ang bed. "Ah ganun,", tinititigan niya ako, that I can almost melt, "so, ginising mo ako para pagmadaliin?", she is walking towards me.

She is getting nearer.

Then she started to tickle me bad. "Ano? Ha? Nanggugulat ka eh!"

"Waaaaah!!", I can't breathe, I seriously can't breathe sa kakatawa. She keeps tickling my hips. Hanggang sa napahiga na naman kami sa bed. "Glaiza! Stop, please! Hahahahahaha! S-s-ssto-o-op! I am begging you!" I feel so weak and napahiga ako.

Glaiza was on top of me.

Her face was few inches away. I was staring at her beautiful eyes.

Ngumiti ako, and she did.

Just as I thought, tumayo siya bigla. Parang the awkwardness kicked her guts. "Rhian, sige na. Liligo na ako ha?" She still smiled, and I did the same. Little did Glaiza know na dalawa ang bathroom dito.

So after I fixed my bed (or "our" bed, should I say), I went straightly sa bathroom.

Thinking about "us" could be an easy thing. Kung wala kami sa showbiz industry, people would look at us like, like normal people. Or should I say, a couple at least?

Everytime na lang na iisipin kong ganito, there's this denial stage. Bakit ganun? Should I be more open to Glaiza?

I just can't.

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"Thank you po sa inyo! Sa lahat ng pumunta dito sa mall show. I heart you guys!" Sinigaw ko sa buong crowd. Sobrang dami ng mga tao. Nakakatouch kasi imagine, debut album ko, tapos, unexpected talaga. Sobrang unexpected.

"Ay, teka mga rebels!", hala. Almost kong nakalimutan. Surprise guest ko bga pala si Rhian ngayon. "May surprise ako sa inyo. Uy, labas ka na." Pinatugtog nila ang Till It's Time, sabay ng paglabas ni Rhian.

"Let me sleep, even just for tonight..."

We sang together. And the crowd went wild.

Yung habang kumakanta kami, yung Althea at Jade. Nandun sila eh. Buhay sila. At yun, yun ang nagbibigay ng lakas sa mga fans namin na, natatakot maging out, or with some other problems. Nakakatuwang malaman na, ikaw ang inspirasyon nila. Na kami ang inspirasyon nila. Love doesn't choose any gender. Mapastraight ka man, or gay, or even lesbian, kapag mahal mo, mahal mo na talaga.

Rhian held my hand tight. Yung totoo? Hindi ko ineexpect yun. It was shocking na slowly niya pang hinawakan ang hands ko. And ayun, nabaliw na naman ang crowd.