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pt2: My Past & Yours

Jakalya pov

At this point I was beyond ready to bust out into tears he asked me about my daughter and her father

I just looked at him dead in his eyes and he look into mines a tear fell from my eye and before I could wipe it away he did it for me

This was my time to get this burden off my chest its been there to long. Its time for the truth to come out

I stayed quite for a few more minutes than started I begun

" OK well I had Jakalya when I was 18 but I must start from the very beginning. " I said with tears rapidly flowing from my eyes I caught my breath for a second and started again

" So when I was 5 mom meet Brunoise and when I was 7 they got married. He always looked at me in these ways like in a sexualized way. He would call me Hus baby girl and tell me I was so pretty I played it no attention I though he was just being nice since I didn't have a father figure in my life so i-i thought that he was just trying to be there for me. But one day when my mother went to work and I was home because we didn't have school that day and Brunoise didn't go to work i-i was watching TV in my room laying on the bed I had on a skirt and a t-shirt. He came in my room and asked what I was doing I told him watching TV he asked could he join and I said yea not to be rude and tell him no get out soon he came and sat next to me on the bed.
And And.... Like a few mins of us watching TV I felt hands going up my skirt and I turned around and asked him what are u doing and he told me to shut up I told him don't talk to me like that and don't touch me again he just smiles and he started to touch me again and I told to stop I tried to move but he got on top of me and started to feel all on my body and slipped down my underwear I was help less he was just to strong so It just happened he raped ME and the words he whispered in my ear I still remember till this day he said your my little bitch and I can do what ever I please to do to you tell anyone imma kill ya mama and maybe just you too from then on he kept and kept raping me until I was 15 I got pregnant and I took a test to see at first I didn't wanna tell my mama but then the signs started to show like throwing up missed period my cravings for food all day long and then my belly started to show. My mother started to wonder am I pregnant and then she asked and by that time I had to tell her what was going on but she didn't believe me she thought I was going around getting knocked up by some Lil boy I told her who it was and she-she told me that I'm a stupid slutty thot to get pregnant at 15 she said you been running around with ya fast little friends and got pregnant but I never really had that many friends cuz bitchs waz to damn fake. She confronted him about what I said he of course denied it he looked me in the eyes pulled a gun out and before my mother could say any thing he shot and killed hu. The last words he said to me was you'll always be my little bitch I made something inside of you you look at your child bitch you'll remember me. Suffer with nobody he put gun to his head and killed him self. I could Neva sleep after that every time I closed my eyes it was there the same thing playing back over and over again. Every since then I've been on my own I really have nobody at this point in life I had my beautiful child and even when I do look at her I would neva look at her like him. "
by this time there was so many tears that has fallen from my eyes but I was just happy that I finally got all that off my chest to someone who actually listens I feel much better no longer with I hold that burden down on me and my child's life

August wiped away my tears and pulled me close to him he brushed all my hair out my face and kissed the top of my
head

" Jakalya look at me" he said pulling back from the hug I kinda sat up

" look me in my eyes babeh" I did as told
" no matter what know that I'm here fa you understand that rite Thea no matter who or what is in my life no matta wat any body say imma be Thea fa ya. And I know how it is ta grow up with out a father figure in ya life and it was hard and mayne ion want ya babeh girl to have it hard too so I'm gonna be that father that she need in hu life ight "

I couldn't do nothing but smile I love him for that I do I appreciate it as well I ain't Neva met no man who a do allat fa me or my daughter not eve my father if I knew who he was

"Thank you August " I said giving him a hug and a kiss

" no need ta be thankin me " he said with a real big smile on his face

He made me feel so much better with the words he told me

August pov

" na can you tell me about you sir" she said with a smile

" well mayne i'a born nd raised in N.O.L.A with my 3 brothers and 1 sister it was 5'a us including me. My birthday September 3 it . I dropped out a highschool in my last year there i was selling rocks on the streets just trying ta make a living and wanting ta provide fa the FAM ya know. I was kicked out ma mama house cuz I was sellin so fa a point I was homeless living on the streets a nigxa couch in the corner store allat. when i was back on my feet I gotta call from my cuz when I was sleep it was bout 30 of em I call back and the nigxa tell me a nigxa killed my brother Mel mayne I was ready ta kill nd find the nigga that did the shit mayne I was still out on the street but one thing I remember Mel telling me was that he don't want me in thus shit nomo he wants a nigxa ta do sumin betta with my life he told me tht god has giving me a gift and he want me ta puts forth ta it. And anigxa thought bout it to so I got out the game but a nigxa ain't trying ta get into no music shit ion even know it just a Lil sumin I do fa fun. Um he left behind 3 beautiful girls and I do ma best ta take care of em my mama she'a still live in new Orleans I go visit ha every now nd then. I'm just chillin nd living life right na ya heard me " talking bout ma brother could get me alil emotional but a nigxa try they best ya keep that shit in

" Im sorry fa your lost " she said giving me a hug

"It's all good babeh aint nun nobody could do bout it na at lease he restin in peace and I know he be watching over a nigxa "

" well can I hear you sing "

"This is for the girl down the hall
Misused and abused
Yeah, yeah yeah
Pick ya head up love, smile
This is for you

Girl I know sometimes that I mistreat you, and you still come back
And I see your homegirls try to reach you, but you ain't hearing none of that
They try to get through, they say I ain't the move

I don't know, cause girl it might be true
When they tell you, you should walk away but you stay anyway
Girl I think it's best for me to say this, I ain't no good
And your heart ain't something I should play with

So let's get it understood
I ain't trying to ruin your life
If anything I just want to make it right
And tell the judge I ain't even gotta plead my case
I can tell my baby to her face"

" omg you sound good man you should try and sign with a label I bieve you could make it "

" thanks shawty"

The rest a the night we just chilled enjoyin each other company. Soon a later my Lil babeh was sleep I carry hu up stairs put hu in bed I took off my pants shoes socks and shirt I. Got right in bed with hu

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