Breaking Through- sequel to "Dark Days"

Chapter 12

"Liz can't you stay out of this!?" Draco said grabbing me by the shoulders as if he were going to shake some sense into me. "Well I should say the same to you!" I answered stubbornly back. "What else am I supposed to do?" "Well…" 

He grabbed me and pushed me against the wall.  His face was an inch away from mine.  I felt fear suddenly going through my mind, but I kept repeating "calm, calm".  He then had his hand at my neck as he began to choke me.  

He then said "I TOLD you that Jake was supposed to protect you!" I felt the tears beginning to stream down my face as I somehow choked out the sobs "He is, he is, I just left without telling him." "Well then why don't I kill him since he isn't doing a good job of stopping yourself from walking into a death trap!  You know I could do better!" 

"NO!" I cried as I started kicking him and punching him with what strength I had.  "Please Draco, please, it'll kill me if Jake's gone…….. you can kill me, do whatever you want with me….just DON'T kill Jake!  Please…."  I continued to sob as Draco tightened his grip.  

He then softened, and then let loose as I fell to the floor.  "You love him don't you?" he whispered as the tears silently rolled down my cheeks.  I then slowly nodded and he didn't say anything, as I then coughed.

"You still don't have to do this." I heaved rubbing my sore neck.  I looked up at him. "I do." he replied "No you don't….I'll think of someway…."

"EXACTLY!  I HAVE to do this!" "NO YOU DON'T!!  Not with me on your side!" "What is that supposed to mean?" "If HE comes after you he goes through me!" "NO!  That isn't how it works!" "Well thats how it works now.  It's my way or no way.  Take your pick."  He stayed silent.  "Now I have to torture you……again….great." he said as he kicked the cabinet.  I stood there biting my lip.  

He got out his wand and finally choked out "Crucio" I felt myself get flung up, but not as forcefully.  I then got let down.  What?!  Draco stood there the tears streaming down his face.  "You're right.  I don't have to do this.  Cause I can't." he choked out softly as the tears trailed down his face.  

I went over to him, trying to comfort him the best I could.  "Shhh…shhh…..it's okay.  Trust me.  It should all turn out fine in the end….." I whispered soothingly as I wiped the tears away from his face and stroked a part his white blond hair.  He looked up at me and then leant in and kissed me.

What?  Why was he kissing me?  And why did it seem like I was kissing back?  I had my both my hands holding Draco's face, as his arms wrapped around my waist.  What was I doing?!

I then pulled away and shaking my head said "Draco.....we can't do this.......I can't do this....." He began to pull me closer to him and whispered "I think we can...." and he leant in and kissed me again.  Except this time it was different.  It was the controlling and rough.  His tongue suddenly slipped into my mouth and began to explore it, ever so slowly....

What was I thinking?  Was I enjoying this?  I asked myself that question, but I couldn't think of an answer.  It was like Draco made me drink some potion, or like I went through the Looking Glass, and everything got turned upside down, and right side up.

I pressed my hands against Draco's chest and pushed back on him.  He stumbled back a little and looked at me.  "Liz what's wrong?" he asked quizingly and I then snapped back "Draco!  I'm not with you anymore!  I'm with Jake!  I'm in love with him!  Not you!"

He was taken aback.  He then walked forward, closer to me.  His voice then got really low, which meant he was really angry.  "So what are you trying to say?" he asked through slightly gritted teeth.  I took a deep breath and said "I care about you Draco, I really do.  Just in a friendship way.  I can't continue kissing you and pretend like Jake's ok with it."

He sighed, and ran his hands through his hair.  "What do you expect me to do Draco?  Run away with you?  A deatheater?  And have some wonderful happy life?  Are you making up a fairy tale story?" I asked and he looked at me with his grey eyes.  He sighed again, and replied "No.  But I just don't think he's good enough for you."

"What do you mean?  He promised to stay with me!  And he didn't, and he never will, lie to my face like you ever did!" I retorted and Draco glared at me and said "Jake and I aren't anywhere close to similiar Liz.  And he's not good enough for you, because I know I can do better than him."

"How so?" I questioned my arms crossing over my chest.  He sighed again and said "Alright, I'm jealous.  There!  You have the story!  I'm just scared you're the one who's going to get hurt in the end, and I wanted to save you from the fallout before it even happened."

I bit my lip, processing what he said to me.  I then opened my mouth and quickly said "So, you think Jake's going to break-up with me?"  Draco shrugged and replied "Possibly.  I don't have a clue what he's like, but I just don't want you to be facing this alone Liz."

Silence then consumed the room again.  He just cared.  That's all it ever was.  The consideration, and thoughtfullness, of a friend.  

I murmured "Should we go back now?" "Oh great!" he said as he swore under his breath.  He grabbed me again and pushed me down the stairs.  I knew he was just doing it for show though. 

We got back to the room and Bellatrix looked at me, almost like she was going to examine me.  She circled around me like a hawk, poking at me once or twice with her wand, as if it was going to make a difference.  She then said "You did some…but not enough!  I'll take it from here!"  She got me on the wall, making sure I couldn't escape anywhere.  

She pinned my arm down and took out the knife.  "Hmmm what to label you my dear…..hmmmm how about stubborn?  No….weak….that's the word." she said as she put the cold tip of the metal onto my forearm.  

She then pushed it in and I let out a blood-curdling shriek.  I felt the 'w' getting written on it and I continued to scream.  Draco looked at me, his face in agony.  Hermione was standing with Fenir holding her back and was yelling at Bellatrix to stop.  

The blood coated the tip of the knife as Bellatrix continued to write.  I started bleeding like crazy and the blood dripped onto the wood floor, leaving scarlet circles, and the blood trickled down my arm.  Great, no one can save us now.  I could only hope.