Hating Her

Chapter-16

Adhvik's pov

[Warning: This chapter contains mention of self-harm and suicide]

I am standing in my room alone. After spending two long days in prison, Nishtha got me bailed, but i am still the rapist guy who is roaming freely because of the power of money!

Honestly, i don't want to meet or talk to anyone right now. The moment i got back, Maa rudra and Nishtha have been trying to cheer me up, keeping dad far away from me.

I still feel imprisoned as if someone captured my soul. My self-respect is shattered into millions of pieces. I never really bothered about public opinion, but the hate and backlash i am getting is too much to bear.

Kehte hai jhoot ko bhi baar baar bola jaye to sach lagne lgta hai.

(It is said that if a lie is told again and again, it begins to seem like the truth.)

Ab to mujhe bhi lagne lgga hai ki shayad maine hi kuch kiya hoga, ki shayad meri hi galti hogi.

(Now I am also beginning to feel that perhaps I might have done something, that perhaps it might be my fault.)

I am just standing blankly wondering if would i ever be able to get rid of this stain on my self-respect! Leave that!

Would i ever be able to respect myself?
Would i ever be able to forgive myself?
Would i ever be able to live normally like earlier?
Would i again end up in prison?

I was staring blankly at the wall in my room when my phone pinged for the millionth time, and i threw it somewhere in anger.

"Bhai, are you okay? Open the door, bhai!" Rudra yelled, knocking the door aggressively.

"I am okay, rudra! You go and focus on your studies!" I said, trying to sound normal and calm.

"Bhai, open the door at least!" Rudra said, and i got up and unlocked the door.

"What?" I asked.

"What was that noise? I was knocking on the door for fifteen minutes! Where were you?" He asked, panicking.

"I am okay! Why were you knocking on the door?" I asked.

"Maa is calling you downstairs for lunch." He said, and i nodded.

I went downstairs. Maa was sitting there along with Nishtha as she was not going to her office for a few days as the whole situation was getting worse. Rudra also got settled beside Nishtha.

"Come i made your favo....."

"I am not really hungry! I'll have this apple!" I said, looking at maa and grabbing the apple, i left for my room.

I threw the plate on which apple was kept somewhere on the bed and sat down. I don't know what is happening! I just can't do it. I am tired of all this.

I opened my laptop and started going through important emails to divert my mind when i noticed an email from brinda.

'Hey Adhvik! I just realized that you still have blocked me and each of my social media accounts, so i had no other option but to email you as i can't even come to your house.

I know you hate me but can you meet me? Just once. I know you are stressed and avoiding any sort of public appearance, but I'll handle that. We can meet at our park.
Are you up for it?
You can still continue to hate me. Just meet me once, please.
I'll be waiting for your reply.'

'Our park!' I chuckled bitterly at the reference.

Flashback

Me and orange used to meet in a park which was kind of hidden and a less crowded place when we were dating to avoid any attention or rumors , that place was full of greenery and was the most peaceful place.