The Fall

CHAPTER 13 - GOODBYE

I woke up the day good as new , i get up get down on my knees and prayed , thanking God for giving me another Great blessfull morning, the birds were chirping and flying happily , i went to the bathroom brush my teeth and took a hot shower.

I was an innocent child , but i was good at Boxing, and writing. But i was hot headed

I go downstairs, i was the first to go downstairs out of all my siblings,
My mother smiled at me and waves me to come over, She hugs me and kiss on my cheek
"here honey eat your breakfast and get ready for school , your father is busy today so i will take you today as usual" she said with a smiling face
"okay"
I replied and ate my breakfast , after i finish my breakfast

I went to my father.

My father was in our living room reading newspaper with a tea and tray on his side , i hugs him from behind and asked him why he can't take me to school.
He didn't answer me so i went back to the kitchen with a long face
My mother cheering me up

To be precise my father never drop me off neither my brother nor sister , we only see him in the morning and rarely at Night, if we're lucky enough , we are able to see him at midnight. We don't really have that much of a strong bond but i love him and respect him i want him to acknowledge me like he did  my brother and sister.

I told my mother

"Mom i'm already 12 years old i can go by my own "

My mother laughs and said

"of course you can darling but daddy don't want you to go alone"

I pout and my mother held my hands and walk me to school, on my way i saw some kids with their father having the best time playing catch , which i really wanted to do with my father , but my father is always too busy

"Mom why is daddy always so busy why Can't he be more like pops , pops always play with me"

"Daddy busy doing all kinds of work he do delivery packaging, unboxing and all other things don't worry honey he will play with you in no time just wait"

"okay" i said happily and went to school

In our school i was the strongest and get challenge everyday no one can beat me but i feel so alone , i don't bully others but the weak ones bullies who are weaker

During our recess i spot three students bullying my fellow classmate i ran there and chase them away , i didn't help him up but he keeps following me and i let him be.

Time pass and he became a good friend he have a big sister who is older only two years

we usually hangs out at their place i teach him how to fight and all other things.

Year pass and i grew older.
And one day

I got home my father was lying down on the sofa , i ran to him and ask him to go fishing  with me before he was gone again
"Dad Let's go fishing please"
i said begging him , without saying a word he shoo me away and went back to sleep. I was sad and from that day the respect i have for my Father gone day by day.

The only coping mechanism i have is to hang around with "derek" and the gang. I spent most of my summertime with Them

I have a huge crush on his big sister "Valentina" we usually call her valie, and that's the only reason why i hang out with him. He calls me his bestfriend but to me he is just a friend

Valie and i get along well , i always confess my love to her and she just laughs it off, because i was "too young" for her , She know me well , she know everything about me.

"Derek" ,me and his twin cousin "jasper" and casper" and "javier" formed a bond i already told you about "javier" the eldest of our group and the other two are not important, he was the strongest and the second is me he was a year older than me and he learned muay thai , we used to fight others and the innocent me slowly died as we grew older

After a year, my friend "derek" family was going to move out i was kinda sad not because of him but because of her , i was 16 years old and she was 20 she grew beautiful more than ever , his cousin and i help them move their furniture to a big truck , and when i got the chance "javier"shove me and give me a chance with her , she was in the kitchen collecting the dish putting them inside a box , i walk quietly and when she saw me  she was startled , on my way to her i saw their Mother artificial flower , i pluck one out, get on my knees and confess my love again

" I know you're going to be gone  but remember , my love for you will never be gone so why don't we let bygones be bygones and let you and me be a thing"

And proceeds to give her the rose , she smiled and blush , she pats my head

"if only the time is right , and if only you were born early we would have happen sorry darling you're too young for me"

I was heartbroken

She looks at the flower examining and laughs

" isn't this my mothers artificial flower?"  still laughing ,

i laugh along with her and i finally said

"don't forget me, i will soon turn 18 and i'll be back for you"

she smiled and said "of course darling"

Thats the first time i was broken and i like it i didn't really understand love then.

Our conversation ends there and her mother called her she went in the car , We was heartbroken so we hug for a long time , "when we meet each other again let's celebrate by drinking all night long" we said laughing

"Derek"!! her mothers call

"go go go before she turns into monster again" we said teasing him

Their engines starts , my friends are waving at "derek" but i was staring at her and  we locked eyes for a second, she winks at me and waves  goodbye.

I thought that would be the last time i see and heard from her.

and there we were, only 4 of us. We looked at each other our face deceived us,we smiled and we all are hurting and sad inside.

4 years of friendship and love
*poof*
Gone in one day...............

After a year , our friendship grew apart and only hangout for a little time . I usually stayed at home and just writes wanting my father to know me i even wrote a poem for him.

Pitiful right 16 year old wanting his father attention.