The Fall

CHAPTER: 8 THE CONFESSION

The Bright sunrise beam through my window  , i was soundly asleep snoring before the beam hit my eyes i opened my eyes , The birds were chirping singing a morning soothing song, It was early about 5:30 am in the morning i get up brush my teeth and took a cold shower to keep my energy up

The day is sunday the only sunday in a year we used to confess in our family ,different relatives comes home on this "special occasion" that my mother/late father made up.

I go downstairs and my mother was busy ,making a morning dinner she spots me and called me right away to help her "come here honey help me set up the table" from the tone of her voice i knew she was not asking,she was demanding i tried to run back to my room and she yells my full name which was not a good sign, and sadly went to help her ,if my mother mood is down at this early in the morning i wonder how her mood will be at the end of the day , different relatives from different village will come, from babies to adult.

I help her all morning and afternoon i was exhausted , i lay down at the sofa burying my face in the pillow and tried to get some rest

*ding-dong*

I held my head to the direction of my mom signalling her to open the door , but she doesn't see me , the doorbell rung once again *ding-dong* i sigh and get up , i opened the door and my relatives was there the most annoying relatives three babies none of them could walk or talk all they do is whine and cry, soon after they all reach our house, Our house was not big,only two families can fit but about 5 to 6 relatives stayed , there was noise all over the place, the sound of babies crying and children laughing and playing it was such a disaster for me that i went to my room and stayed there till the dinner is to be served ,i listen to some calm music blocking all the noise that are coming from downstairs circus,my mothers calls me "dinner is served come down" I went down and they all sat on their sit , Putting up their best behaviour . We all sat at our place, my mother stand up shushing all the inside noise out and began to make her speech

"Today is such a special occasion for our family, i'm very happy you all can make it ,really i'm very grate-" my uncle babies start to cry ,My mother gave them her death eyes and stops them before they could cry out loud , My mother has some kind of power to shut down a baby and the power to found all the things we couldnt find She's the real superhero.

She continus her speech "I'm very grateful since my husband passing i'm alone stuck with these precious , treasure , troublemakers " everyone lets out a laugh "you all know the reason why we gathered here today , Your uncle ,Your grandfather, your brother-in-law, Your brother ,Your father and My late husband makes this as a tradition every last sunday of the mid year of june to have a confession about whatever you please to say so we will start confessing while we eat our dinner " she sits down called out her brother and signal him to start , they all confessed even our little cousin which was about 4 years old ,we all laugh and adored his innocence. My time has come and i got nothing , i got nothing to confess nor to tell , i sit in silence staring at my plate which i didn't take a single bite out of , i kept staring at my plate my mind was blank ,i quickly stand up and said " thank you for coming my mother really appreciate your presence here , i'm really sorry but i have to go" i said hurriedly and take my jacket and went out , they all stared back and forth to me and my mother ,  "let him go , he's losing his mind i don't know why,but i need to do something with him" my mother exclaims

I don't know why i got up and went out , i don't know why my mind is so fucked up and blanked , i wonder how people in the mental hospital felt , I hope i can be me again i want to feel the same way as people do, i want to hang around, laughing with a group of people i want that, i need that.

I go to "The place" we called it the place because there is no bar at my hometown and thats where we drink or party , i ordered a whole bottle and drink it like a bottle of water. I pay up and leave , the alcohol starts to kick in i walk out and follows the road towards me

"hey" i heard some distant voice behind me i didn't turned back "hey mister poetic man are you okay?" i heard her  , i was so excited and turned my back as soon as i heard her voice but she was not there,no one was ,no one but me , I stumble across the road not knowing where i go , i see a light beaming ahead me i followed the light which leds to me a very dark place full of trees , birds chirping sound and the cracking of dry leafs on the ground are the only sound 

I sat down leaning my back to the trees and pulled out my phone ,before i even knew i called the college girl  she pick it up right after it rings "hello, love what's the special occasion " she said i could tell she smiles on the other side of the phone "come pick me up i don't know where i am , i am drunk " i replied "oh i will gladly come it's not like its the first time,where are you?" she ask "i don't know , i followed the light towards me and it leads me to a dark place full of trees and birds "  i said with a muddled voice "send me your location I'm nearby your hometown anyways"she said  hangs up the phone , i send her my location on chat and waits for her about 20 minutes.

I heard a car revs from distant , and someone getting out and slamming the door followed by footsteps , i heard leafs cracking as they are step on ,she saw me right before i doze off ,she touch my shoulder and sit on my lap, i opened my eyes and saw her , her face right next to mine.