Waves Of Her

Chapter 7: Genovah

CHAPTER 7

Since I learned what liking someone meant, a school year would not pass without unlocking a new crush from another section or year level anymore.

Hindi ko na nga mabilang sa mga daliri ko kung ilan na ang natipuhan ko noong high school. I could go on and on and I would still need a pile of papers to write on.

It's thrilling to look at someone and try my best not to get caught glimpsing.

Nakakaexcite i-look forward na mapadaan sa may classroom ng crush mo tuwing recess at mapasilip, hoping that he'll look at you, too. Nakakakilig, nakakatuwa.

Nevertheless, nanatili akong NBSB hanggang ngayon. Siguro dala na rin ng treatment sa akin ni Kuya Lucid kaya alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi pa dumarating 'yong tamang tao para sa akin. Hindi naman kasi ako nagmamadali.

And well, mapili sina Papa - lalo na si Kuya. If anyone did try to court me, they'd have to go through two types of - I would like to call it "torture" - to pass the test.

It's funny 'cause no one ever pass the test. I don't know if they're not committed about courting me or my brother's just scary.

It was a stage of my life worth reminiscing about, knowing that I was having fun. I was happy about the little things 'cause the little things makes me jumps out of joy.

The little things is all that matters 'cause my life was still revolving around my tiny made-up world.

How I wish I never grew old.

The more I age, the more I realize that we - adults - are just big babies lost in the crowd.

Still needs the same attention and guidance but because we could carry a big weight of a burden now, everyone else turns away, believing that we got it from here.

How I wish they saw how my knees were shaking.

Hindi ko sinisisi ang mga magulang ko sa kinahinatnan ng buhay ko ngayon. They raised me so well. This adulthood is just a step in my journey that I badly wish I didn't take. Specially with the context about love.

Nakaka-miss maging bata at magkaroon ng maraming crush. Because as of now, I don't think it's fun to like someone anymore. Not when it's crushing my bones.

That's how I'd like to describe the feeling of betrayal.

"O, nakahanda na ba lahat ng gamit mo, Lulu?" paninigurado sa akin ni Pa.

Nginitian ko siya saka tumango.

Babalik na ulit ako ngayon sa Maynila. Bumalik na kasi ang lakas ni Mama noong bandang madaling araw. Nakakatayo na siya at nakakapag jumping jacks pa.

I was so happy that I cried while hugging her. Lahat kami sobrang nag-alala sa kalagayan niya. Thank goodness, she's alright now. Kasi kung hindi, hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko.

This morning, I bid my goodbyes to Mom, Dad and kuya. Si Tita kasi, umuwi na kanina.

The moment she witnessed that Mom was alright, nagsimula na agad siyang mag-empake. Masyado niyang tinotoo 'yong kataga niya na, "Pupunta lang ako kapag kailangan niyo ako, pag hindi na, gora na ako, babush!"

I, on the other hand, hated to leave but I had to, because of my work. Alam kong kakaayos lang ng pakiramdam ni Ma and I feel bad for leaving so soon so I promised to check up on her every now and then.

Si Kuya naman mukhang masama yata ang timpla kase ansama niya kung makatingin sa akin. After ng pag-uusap namin kagabi, hindi na kami nakapag-usap pa dahil nag diretso tulog na kami pareho pagkatapos maghapunan.