The darkest part of my mind

Envy

It's weird when you think about it

How can someone feel so unfulfilled with themselves to compare themselves to someone they don't even know?

The first time I felt this, was in elementary school

I was in kindergarten

And I liked this boy

But he like the girl every other boy grew up to like

She was the typical, cute as a kid and just got prettier along the way

Except she was a mean girl pretending to be nice

I used to be openly mean...

I didn't like to pretend I was something I wasn't

At some point in middle school I wanted to be the girl that everyone liked

The girl that was nice to everyone

That had no enemies

But I never could last.

I guess the good thing about me is that when it came to loyalty, I was the most loyal person you'd ever meet.