The darkest part of my mind

Every Word

The pain with every word I get out

I contain every emotion I feel

They say let it out

But do they really want to hear?

I have no one to tell

No one to hear me

No one's listening

I want to call out for help

But they don't care

They don't remember me

They don't see me

They don't hear me

No one's there.

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It's hard to talk to people about how you feel when you know they don't actually give a fuck about anything you have to say. I feel like my parents don't actually care about how I actually am or feel, they just need me to hide it away as best as I can.

I was in therapy for a good year and my mom thinks I don't need it. She thinks it's a waste of money, but doesn't want to listen to what I have to say. When I had a therapy I had someone to give me a good reflection of who I was and what I wanted.

The main thing I need when talking to someone in a vulnerable conversation is someone to listen and give me reassurance.