"Dilemma Of Faith"

Chapter-15

Baba looks at maa then at me, a peaceful meek is resting on his face like he's going to marry again. Taking a deep breath, he says, " actually I wasn't a good guy of my era, ever skipping Salah, always running from Deen. But then my parents arranged my nikah with your maa g. They thought this was the only way I'd be some responsible. At first, I thought no one could change me, but seeing her so in love with Allah made me doubt if I'm a Muslim or not... And Masha'Allah she is hafiza' Quran. So she started teaching me Quran and I was so immersed that I found the right way. I repented to Allah and devoted my soul to exploring more about Islam. Look how peaceful my life is now, all credit goes to my Noor who became the source of light in my dark life. "

I feel an inner peace hearing of my parents'love story. Because of maa, baba was guided. They're still living this happily. I don't know why I felt hope for yejun. I'll also pray istikhara for us once I get over from my period.

<Fatima forgot that she isn't like her pure mother anymore. She is exploiting herself if believes it. >

Maa caresses Baba's temple and then looks at me. She says, " actually Fatima! I believe that a woman should be so in love with Allah that her man has to turn to Allah to find her. "

My smile fades, heart forgets a beat, why I felt like a two faced here. Why I felt like I don't love Allah anymore? I look away,,. But wait Why should I feel embarrassed when there are more sinners than me.!! I'm just a normal girl who just changed herself a little bit according to the situation. aishh!! Why I'm thinking this way, I might look doubtful but before anyone could notice me, Rumi enters the chat. She shows her portrait to baba. "Baba! See..it looks like taehyung oppa? Right? "

Baba facepalms after seeing her portrait, "ohoo!! I almost forgot that taehyung called me yesterday. He has invited all of us at lunch this weekend".

" he's very sweet". Maa adds her compliment.

I look at baba, he always keeps on praising that Taehyung named guy like he is his own son. Even maa also remembers him a lot especially at dinning table. And Rumi, who always shows me the gifts that guy bought her. Why is this feel so clingy? Like an unknown person is getting involved in our family for no reason. Even though I have never seen him but still I feel so bad that a stranger is acting like he's a family member. Keep meddling his nose in our lives.

" Fatima unnie will also go with us? " Rumi asks in excitement. I was about to say no when baba says, "sure.. He invited all of us. And Fatima hasn't met him yet, so from this she'll also get to see him. He invited me so genuinely that I couldn't even refuse. After all he calls me his baba. "

Baba really smiles like that idiot is his son. Why I feel like he's trying to snatch my Baba's love. I was supposed to be his only son and that guy is trying to become Baba's son. I roll my eyes in annoyance, that person is so sick minded. Or am I just jealous.

.....

The other day, I was on campus. The fact I won't deny, since that guy hired his driver for rumi's pick and drop service. So I'm relaxed, I can easily go home late without any hesitation.

In class, I was making my notes when Jiho and Yuri entered. I move my attention from notes to the entrance. Smiling cause I've seen my own coming. But I don't see millie!?

"Hey Fatima baby! How are you doing? " Jiho says while coming to me with a huge smile as usual.

I smile too but notice her eyes are a little red, "I'm good.. But your eyes are.."

"Aa!! Actually I couldn't sleep well last night, even the concealer didn't hide my dark circles? " she says while rubbing her eyes.

I chuckle, "it's ok.. Sometimes it happens. Get proper sleep. "