Don't JUDGE me

TANGGAP

Mood: 🙁

Tama pa ba ito?

I am still battling, and I do not know when this will end.

May mali ba sa mga ginagawa ko?

Bakit ganito ang reality?

You do not need to blame God for this.

But you can blame yourself.

Or even the destiny itself.

Is this what it meant for me?

To struggle until the last breath of my life?

I get it, we have our own challenges.

Pero may iba naman nalalagpasan.

Bakit ako na kahit anong gawin ko, hindi pa rin nanaig ang pagkapanalo?

I was being a good human being.

I am serving by doing my duties, and my responsibilities.

I do not aim for perfection.

I am not expecting for a flawless development.

But instead yung matupad lang kase other than I want it, I also need it.

This is just small things.

Bakit hindi maisagawa?

Binibig pa kaya parang premium na kailangan pang gawan ng paraan.

I am freaking tired.

Para akong gulong na patuloy na umiikot.

Nakakadaan sa mga bako-bako.

Sa may mga butas.

Madudulas o hindi kaya magaspang.

Tuloy tuloy lang at titigil pag nagkaroon ng unexpected hole.

Hole siyete all of this.

I sacrifice that I give my everything.

Even if there was distraction or interruption, I still proceed until I can get things done.

Is it too much to ask?

This will only make me happy.

It shapen to who I am.

I am not doing any illegal or unnecessary actions.

Okay ba? Absolutely not.

Your effort just comes to waste.

Hindi naman ito pinapangarap ko e.

Naka-ilang dasal na nga just to have that access.

Halos halatin na nga eh.

Naging official tambayer pa ng library.

Pabalik balik pa naman.

May pagkakataon pa bang bigyan ng consideration?

Hindi ko siya tanggap.

Kahit anong gawin ayaw ko.

Kase ilang linggo rin ang nilaan ko doon e.

Dami kasing depinisyon.

Pero may meaning pa ba ito sa buhay ko?

Gusto ko kung ano ang para sa akin.

Hindi itong outcome na I do not know, not great.

Kase anong ginawa ko? Nagimbak lang ng nilalaman para may mapaggamitan?

Tumambay ng halos ilang oras sa lugar na puno ng mga libro at nakatuktok hanggang sa matapos at maubos ko ito?