The dork

12 : Broken

        Why ?

But he called me

The house is quiet as  I make my way upstairs in search of him

  He seemed really mad

Maybe I shouldn't be here

And when I open his bedroom door what I see completely breaks me

Him
And Britney

On his bed

Half of his body is covered under the sheets and he seems naked

  She sits up

" Hey Alex, I wasn't expecting you here, we " she says whilst playing with his hair " weren't expecting you here I mean we even told Elijah to leave"

  Oh so that's why he's not here

They drove him

" Wh-what is going on here" I just don't want to believe....

" Oh c'mon Alex, you're not that daft, you still need me to spell it out for you"
" No-no it can't be true" I croak suddenly losing my voice

  No he wouldn't do this to me

" Well it is sweetheart, now I suggest you leave before he wakes up, I don't think he would be pleased to see you"

  I just nod feeling so overwhelmed

This can't be fucking happening

And she continues

" You probably he loved you, poor thing" she takes " did he say it? He can never love someone like you- "

" Nor can he you " I finally say

I'm so furious I can feel my ears burning up

I feel my tears about to spill
But definitely not in front of her cause that's exactly what she wants to see

But over my dead body would I give her that satisfaction

" He can never love someone like you, who has already given her all when he hasn't even said anything " I continue

" Who said he hasn't "

" We both know he hasn't Britney "

" You're just hurt and taking it out on me. LEAVE!!!" She booms a bit too loudly I'm shocked it didn't wake Jake

" Oh don't worry I will, I'm just glad he's asleep so you don't have to go through the shame and pain of him leaving you and running to my feet "

With that I give her a smile and finish
" Cause you and I both know Brit, he'll never be yours "

I take a deep breath

     " Bye Britney "
I throw him one Last glance, a smile at Britney and then I shut the door and run as fast as my legs can carry

I feel the tears fall but I don't even try to stop or hold it in anymore

     I trusted him

      I let him in

Only for him to break me

     Shatter me

I've not let myself feel this much pain in the past two years

I finally gave myself to someone wholeheartedly
Trusted someone

Enough to share my pain and secrets

He's the only male person I'd been able to let into my life after my dad completely and absolutely shattered my trust in male species entirely

But he was no different

I tried to be me again coz he wanted me to
  But it was all fake
He probably didn't even give two fucks

  I loved him

I actually did

    And no matter how much I want to deny it
   I can't

Because this pain is proof of how deeply I let myself fall in love with him

All the memories

      Everything was all
A lie

  I don't even realize I'd been running the whole to my house
     Until I'm running upstairs into my room, shutting the door and falling flat on my bed
Ignoring my  brother calling out to me

       Fuck I need to get myself together

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Well, that was one rollercoaster

   How many of us saw that coming, I totally did

  Anyway I just wanted to point out one thing
     You don't, I mean don't have to change yourself to match the circumstances around you instead the circumstances should
Alex's right ideology is completely and utterly wrong, everything happens for a reason in your family or whatever you don't have to blame yourself or dwell on it

  Come out bigger, better and stronger, ya get me?

How many of us are still holding onto team ' jalex'
    Fyi Alex doesn't forgive easily

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