The dork

8 : Deja Vu

                                    Jake

One week

It's been one week since I've seen Alex

I couldn't talk to her on Monday
Even though I got to school because....
......
       I don't fucking know

All I remember was, I got to school, I saw her and Daniel our team mate
   And I just lost it

I couldn't tell left from right

I threw punch after punch until he was bleeding and I still didn't stop

But I don't blame myself though
I mean it's not my fault

It was his
The way he was touching her , holding her. Even the way he was looking at her

I mean even dickweed would have been able to tell she was uncomfortable

   But you know that ain't even the worst part

  The worst part was when they were finally able to pry me off him
I couldn't say anything to Alex
  I just turned around and left the school

And on my drive home it all hit me

Like what the fuck did I do?

I was supposed to be with my dad all-day, so my plan was to Walk into school inform her about my absence and apologize for not being able to attend the Geo class and then leave

But instead I went there, fought with a teammate, didn't even speak to her and then left

I mean I don't even know why I did what I did
  But the sight of him so close to her just had me seething

Since when did I care about the guys around her?

   Since you fell in love with her dumbass

  Nope
Not that again

And after everything all I could do was pull my phone out and send her a really confusing text 5mins to Geo class period

It said

       Lexi

  Do it alone
  Can't make it
  Dad came in
  Later

Even I didn't understand what I meant when I reread the text

  And after then I was so damn busy

Now it's been a week
     And I think I'm losing it

I'm also starting to get the feeling that she's avoiding me

Of course she's avoiding you
You kissed her, without her permission

Well yeah I kissed her
But it wasn't just me, I mean she responded on her own

So what?

Ugh fucking hell !!!
This shit is Killin me

After that day I tried calling her a couple of times but she's always busy when I call
   We'd text at night, but it's not the same

She says she's not big on texting
But the past few days I'm starting to think it's more than that

Maybe she doesn't want to be friends with you anymore cause you kissed her

Fuck, I can't even stop thinking about that night and the thought of her avoiding me is giving me sleepless nights

   I can't stand the thought of not being close to her anymore