I hope you could listen. But first I need words for you to listen to. It's not easy and or simple what I need to say, need to let out. You're too important to me to lose. I'd lose something inside if that happened. But even if I tried I don't think you'll know what I mean what I really feel. So I'm not going to tell you anything. I'll tell you this. That I'm okay. That I'm going to do right no matter what. That I'm happy and that all I ever need is for you to be happy too. Lies sprinkles with truth. I'm not going to tell you anything for you. For me more so because I'm damn selfish. So I'm sorry I'm weak and a coward. I can't take the risk of you leaving me. Can't bring up the words to tell you the truth, what I'm going through. What I am. You don't have to worry about me... Even if I told you you don't have to worry about me. I'm going to do the right thing. I am. It's going to be hard I know but that's my burden to carry, not yours. I will do right so that not telling you is like nothing ever happened in the first place.
