Without You

Chapter 18

I go over to an empty table and sit down. I just sit there awkwardly alone, eating my croissant. I look around at others who were alone. They looked normal. Probably because they have a notebook/textbook in front of them, actually doing something. Or even a laptop on the desks, with their food and drinks to the side. I'm just here alone, eating.

I finally finish my drink and croissant, and I get up to go walk downstairs. I press the button to open the door, and as I walk out, someone bumps into me. I turn to look at who it was and it was a girl.

"Oh my! I'm sorry!" she says. I smile and just shake my head.

"No. It's okay." I tell her. She smiles and I recognize her. I think that's Jungkook's girlfriend.

"Hey! Are you JiYoon?" she asks me. I look at her and then slowly nod my head. I'm surprised that she knows my name.

"Yeah, how do you know me?" I ask her.

"Oh, everyone knows you. You used to be really close with Jungkook right?" she asks. I nod.

"Well, it was great meeting you!" she smiles. I force a slight smile back at her. As soon as I was going to turn around and walk downstairs, I see Jungkook coming down towards her.

"Hey babe." he says to her, pecking her lips. I didn't know whether to cringe or feel sad. I actually felt pretty numb. She chuckled and said hi back to him. They both look at me and I regret not leaving downstairs already.

I look at Jungkook and immediately look at his girlfriend. I smile at her.

"Well, see you in school I guess." I say to her. She smiles and bows down, saying goodbye. I nod and then quickly walk downstairs. I hate that she's pretty.

***

"JiYoon. You sure you're okay?" My dad asks me during dinner. I sigh and nod my head. He doesn't ask again.

We keep eating in silence. I finished and put my chopsticks down, and look at my dad.

"Dad, I'm confused." I say. He looks at me and swallows.

"With what?" he asks.

"Guys." I say. My dad raises an eyebrow. "What if there's a guy that you thought you had a crush on? And like, he knows things about you that nobody knows about and he shows that he cares for you. And then out of nowhere, he stops talking to you?"

My dad just stares at me, not getting what I'm saying. I shake my head and say never mind. I finish eating and get up to go wash my dish.

"No. I'll wash it." he says. He gets up and pushes me aside. I chuckle and roll my eyes, leaving the dining room.

I go straight to my room and lie down on my bed. I stare at the ceiling. For the past week, I've been forcing myself to delete Jungkook's number. But I couldn't. I couldn't do it. I don't know why. I probably still have feelings for him. It's time to get rid of those.

***

I'm on my way to art class and I catch the bad boy group. I look over at them and Jimin looks at me. He smiles and looks over at TaeHyung and Jungkook. They seemed to not be paying attention to Jimin, so he comes walking towards me.

"Hey beautiful." he says, smiling at me. I roll my eyes and already regret thinking he could be a friend.

"You have a girlfriend, stop." I tell him. He chuckles and rolls his eyes.

"Yeah, I know." he says. "But I'm not going to lie."

"Whatever." I say. I continue walking to my class.

"Hey, hey, hey! Wait a minute." he says, catching up to me and grabbing my shoulder. "Aren't you going to ask me why your precious boyfriend is ignoring you?"

"YeJun isn't my boyfriend." I say. He scoffs.

"You know I'm not talking about him. And he's not even ignoring you." Jimin says. "You know I'm talking about Jungkook."

"Jungkook has a girlfriend. Don't call him my boyfriend."

"Do you want to know or not?" he shouts at me. I look at him for a while and shake my head.

"No. I don't want to deal with him anymore." I say. "I don't want to know anyways."

"You sure?" he says. I roll my eyes and walk away. "He told me about the kiss."

I stop walking and look at him. He starts chuckling and comes closer to me.

"I was just kidding about the kiss. He didn't tell me anything about I kiss. I didn't even know that you two kissed until right now when you stopped and looked at me nervously." he says laughing really loud. I start to blush, but I was more annoyed than shy.

"So you two kissed? When? Who kissed who?" he asks. I stay silent and just glare at him. But he continues asking those questions over and over and over again, purposely annoying me.

"A week ago. Namsan Tower. He did first. Happy?" I tell him. He smiles and pats my shoulder before walking off back to Jungkook and TaeHyung. I groan and finally walk to my art class.

The bell rings and everyone's sitting in class. Jungkook just naps on his desk. I tap onto the desk with my pencil, creating a random beat in my head since I'm super bored. I start bobbing my head up and down with the beat, and even hum to myself.

Mr. Song doesn't say anything to us. Everyone just goes and does their normal routine of working on their project. I chuckle to myself, seeing most of them just starting their project. Procrastinators. The project is due next week and they're barely starting. I can't imagine the stress they probably have.

I keep tapping on my desk and my pencil suddenly flies off my hand. I spazz out a little, a bit shocked wondering how that even happened. I see it hit Jungkook on the top of his head. I started busting up laughing.

He sits up and rubs the back of his head, and I'm just dying from laughter. People are looking over my way, but I didn't care. It was totally unintentional but it smacked him pretty hard. He deserves that at least.

"What the hell?" he says. I'm trying to calm down from laughing by covering my mouth. But I couldn't stop. I just look weird probably, with my mouth covering and my body moving because I'm silently laughing hard now.

I turn my face away from him and just continue laughing to myself. I finally calmed down and breathed in and out deeply. I finally exhaled and sat back straight in my seat. I'm still mentally laughing.

"Class. Remember in the beginning of the year when I said that you're going to be stuck with your partner for both years?" Mr. Song says, standing up in front of the class. We all look over at him.

"Well, I'm thinking about changing that. Maybe you can change your partner for the second year, if you want to. I feel like it's good to experience art with other people, get different ideas." he says. "I'll update you guys when I'm sure I'll let you guys change partners."

I started smiling a little bit. This can totally help me with ignoring Jungkook. Good thing we already finished our project. I don't have to go over to his house anymore and work on it with him. I don't have to speak with him anymore. I don't care who I get paired up with next year, if anyone wants to even pair with me. I just hope it's not YeJun.

"Also, for sure next year you guys have to use a different medium for your projects. Don't always draw, or don't always sculpt. Do your project in a different next year okay?" Mr. Song says. In unison we reply back "yes".

I sit back in my desk, a bit happy. Maybe my life can finally go back the way it used to be. Where I don't have to worry about drama with "friends".