What Life Is

Sleep

The body and mind need rest to function
It is something we have been taught
A go to reset button for the heart and soul
Right?
Sleep is the thing that brings about energy and readiness
Usually.

The thought of sleep strikes fear into my tired heart
The thought that maybe the dreams will reappear
Like demons rearing their ugly heads
Praying on my downfall
Keeps me awake
I don't want to be awake
There is the issue

Sleep is the closest thing to death that I can feel
Without causing my friends and family pain
It used to be what I turned to to run away
The thing that took me so far away from this world
That it took a magnifying glass to see what was happening in it

I am scared of sleep
I am scared of what lurks there
My mind is a place that I would never let another human experience
Nor would I wish it on them
It is odd
Because my mind is viewed by others as amazing
But they don't know how much pain it truly causes me
Something in there seeks to torment me every day
And I can't help but think
It is me