i agree with my husband [ jake x johnnie ]

ch.13

JAKE'S POV:

i know i was the one telling johnnie we need to talk but... what should i say? i don't want to be in a relationship, but i want johnnie. how does that work?

we go outside to the patio and i grab my cigarettes from my pocket.

"no smoking in 2024, huh?" he asks with a sassy smile on his face. i want to kiss him.

"yeah, well..." i sigh "i guess i'm a failure."

he asks for a ciggie and i give him one. i know he is waiting for me to start talking about the situation between us, my feeling, or whatever, but i don't know how to start.

"well"

"well" we start with the same thing which kinda breaks the ice because we are both laughing now. we are literally the same person at this point. "you can start" he says.

"i don't know how to, johnnie" i say honestly. "i am so fucking scared."

"why? it's only me" he smiles. it doesn't help.

"i... i really don't know. maybe you should start" i say.

"there's no point of hiding it anymore - he gulpes. "i like you jake. and i always did."

"what do you mean always?"

"since we first met" he answers and i'm in literal shock. am i this blind? i never noticed until a few days ago.

"i didn't know."

"i know. i did a great job hiding it... until you and tara broke up." he sits down to the stairs. that is a thing i noticed since i've been friends with him. it doesn't matter to him if there are chairs somewhere, if he gets the chance he is sitting on the ground. i sit next to him. "i'm bisexual."

JOHNNIE'S POV:

"i'm bisexual" this is the first time i say this out loud. i mean... kyle knew back in the day, we made out sometimes, but i never said it, and he didn't either. kyle was the first boy i kissed, but we never did anything else. just kissing. we were so fucking young.

jake doesn't seem surprised. i mean, i get it. it was kinda obvious. i wait for him te react something, anything really, because the silence is killing me once again. jake just smokes the cigarette and stare to the distance.

"i think i am too" he says and my eyes widen. jake is bisexual?? that means that i have a chance? "i don't know really. i don't care about gender. i just like who i like."

"and who do you like?" i ask biting my cheeks from the inside. he stays quiet for some time and i want to die.

"johnnie stop flirting this is serious" he says trying to sound strict but i can see the smile that he is hiding.

"i'm not flirting. who do you like, jakey?" i whisper while leaning closer. he looks in my eyes and my heart melts.

"you, dumbass" he says and gives me a kiss on my forhead. he is the cutest and i just hope that his lips didn't get sticky from my hairspray. "but..." my heart skips a beat. but what? "i don't think i can be in a relationship right now johnnie..."

i feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. my feel my eyes tearing up.

"no, don't cry darling" he says and holds my face with his hands. "i want to be with you johnnie, i really do. i just don't want to go too fast. i don't want to ruin us" he says and i nod. one teardrop leaves my eyes and he immediately wipes it down with his thumb.

"can i kiss you?" i ask whispering.

"of course you can, whenever you want" he says and i press my lips against his. our lips fit like puzzle pieces. nothing can ruin this moment for me. jake likes me too. he wants to be with me, hold me, kiss me. this is the best feeling i ever felt.

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KYLE MENTIONED >0<

17/2/2024