The dork

8 : Deja Vu

      This week has given me time to think
       And I think.... I like her

No, I like her

      Like really really like her.
And it's more than just natural for a normal friendship
 
    And No, this isn't just the kiss talking

I'm so fucking sure

          Should I tell her?

Hell No, that will completely chase her away

  But you've already scared her off, what's left?
Just tell her and get it off your chest
And get rejected

        Fuck
How do you even say stuff like that?

'Um I like you girl, be my woman '

Hell No, that's just cringe

Damn this shit is messing with me

      A girl, Jake
A girl who probably doesn't even give two fucks about you

Knowing Alex she might just be happy she finally got her space
Or not

   Ugh I don't fucking know anymore

  Whatever it is, I've made up my mind

I'll tell her, however way possible

And I'll just maybe accept her reaction, whatever it'll be

  Yeah, whatever it takes,
             I'll tell her

                                Alex

It's been one week, since I've seen Jake

We've texted but I dunno it just felt.... not quite the same

   What were you expecting that after the kiss, things will still be the same. Plus you were probably even a bad kisser, I mean how many guys have you kissed,  like three
    And all bet a dollar none of them even liked it

Oh fuck me

I hadn't even brushed my teeth that day, or had I?

Ugh main problem, I think he's avoiding me

How's that a problem I thought you liked being alone

Yeah I actually did, since when did that change?

    I finally make it to my locker after walking so slowly since I was lost in thought
     Luckily Bella isn't here, coz I don't think I need her adding to my turmoil

I unlock my locker and then I hear noise

     The halls  have been so quiet lately, I mean it was like even the B's took a break
So I turn around and notice they aren't even girls but guys, The Wolves

But why are they being so lou-

    Oh

It's him

Woah, he looks.... stressed

They don't seem to notice tho
They've really missed him

So did you

Shut up stupid subconscious

His eyes meet mine

And I look away

Fuck those grey orbs

He excuses himself and then makes his way towards me

" Hey Lexi"
" Hey" I say my body automatically turning to face him
" I missed you"
What the fuck?!
How could he say that and why so easily
"Aren't you gonna say you missed me too, or didn't you" he says the last part with frown

  Um.... I'm so fucked
" Uh I guess so but we talked right" I say laughing awkwardly
Get it together Alex
" Like once or twice, just say you missed me Lexi"
" K I missed you"
        Damn!!!!!!

" Okayyyyy, I got a couple of stuff to do with the guys but I'll make sure I'm lunch break, there's something we really need to talk about "

    Huh?

" Um sure "
" So library, right "
" Yeah "

He steps forward staring at me a bit hesitant but then pecked me on the cheek then lips
   And just smiled and walked away like it's completely normal

     My insides are literally exploding right now
       Fuck me!!!!

  Gosh people are staring

I close my locker and begin to class with just one thought on my mind

  Where the fuck is this shit taking me and what's so important that he wants to talk about

                                  
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This chapter is a bit uneventful but that's coz it's kind of a filler
But trust me the next ones gonna be epic 😵

   Although Jake has finally accepted his feelings, I don't think Alex has.

So him telling her could be disastrous, maybe
         I dunno, what do you guys think is she gonna go easy on Jake or should he be prepared for the worst kind of rejection?

        Please 🥺 fill up the comments section and let me know your thoughts

                 Love y'all 😘🥰🌹