and all of a sudden I became older than everyone I knew in passing.
instead of being a new excitement, it was a violent nightmare in which nothing made sense.
my mind seems broken and randomly misfires, showing me awful and confusing sights.
it's like a fever dream that occurs during the day as my eyes are open.
it's as if I murdered someone and covered it up, and now my conscience is fighting my memory.
guilt?
I can see no end to this episode.
it goes on and on, for eternity until I eventually die.
