how do i help myself. please help me. please
im constantly sad and scared
I have so much regret and hatred for who I am and it never goes away
so many rules, regulations, morals, and promises broken.
he will learn that he hates me when he sees my foolish tears.
always emotional and agonizing over meaningless things
i am just like my mother
maybe if i could learn to love my mother I could learn to love myself
I don't want to depend on him too much
why did I ever start this'
why do i make these horrible mistakes
i want it to end
why does everyone else get to live normally
is there something wrong with me?
is my heart and brain broken?
so many good things are happening but I am in so much pain
I am being pulled from both directions
i cant even move now.
my sister has endured so much more than me.
my brothers, my mother and father too.
why am I so pitiful then?
nothing truly horrible has happened to me
why am I so emotional?
am I pregnant?
