For anyone who saw my recent posts that have been deleted by now I apologise. I was in a very dark place momentarily and that went onto online. I tried to get rid of that feeling and I thought writing about it was the answer but turns out that did not happen. I appreciate all the people who reached out to me and even though it was just a few thoughtful messages it really saved me. I hope people remember that though Christmas is supposed to be a magical time of the year for people many of us struggle. I want to thank again the people who messaged me on here aswell as viv and Beth who I have recently got into contact with through a family member. They have really helped me lately and I know there's a lot of fans of them on here. They really are great people. (And myle is the actual cutest.) thanks again and apologies for those who did see my spiral momentarily.