"That was beautiful." Mom said.
"Thank you," I replied, a little nervous with all the compliments I was receiving.
Sure, I was rusty as hell since I haven't played the piano in so long, but I felt as if I had never left the world of music and for that, I felt happy knowing I was back.
I was back into Lola's world.
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It was after dinner and I laid on my bed, my body sprawled out like a starfish as I stared at the ceiling, my birthday ends in a few hours and I was beyond thankful for how memorable my family made my birthday.
But I will never forget the birthdays I would spend with Lola, blowing out a single candle on a cupcake.
Before the day is over, there's one more thing I have to do. I had to carry out the tradition Lola and I had, even if she's not here.
I pushed myself to get out of bed and dressed myself in a long sleeve t-shirt and shorts— it was the first thing I found hanging on my desk chair. It was also extremely cold outside but I didn't care as I rushed down the stairs, almost tripping in the process but I clutched onto the handrails while recomposing myself.
I wore my boots and left the house without a single sound, not wasting another second in the house.
I had to get away. I don't know why but I was beginning to get overwhwelmed with everything that happened today.
Everything I received were just too much— I'm grateful but I grew up being told that I didn't deserve anything good in life.
I have so much bottled up inside me and it's been waiting to explode.
I didn't have time to process everything that's happened in the past few months that the memories of my birthday in the past made me realised how much of a deep wound everything has imprinted in me.
With a heavy feeling in my heart, I walked inside a store and bought a small chocolate cupcake with candles and walked wherever my feet would take me.
It was dark and freezing cold out, my body was literally shivering but I didn't care because carrying out Lola's tradition mattered more to me right now than anything else.
The sound of my footsteps were the only thing heard as I walked while looking up at the night sky, spotting a few stars but I instead focused on the moon that shone so bright.
It appeared bright, soft and luminous in the dark sky— it was the most eye catching thing.
At last, I didn't know how long I had walked for until I came across a bench in a park where I sat with my legs close to my chest, holding the small cupcake as I lit the '17' candle and stared at it.
Lola was the only person there for me when I was going through the hardest thing in my life— she was the only one I trusted and the only person I had.
Despite not being blood related, she treated me as if I was her own and taught me what it felt like to be loved.
She was there to hold me when I cried and was there to love me when I felt worthless.
One thing she said that always stuck to me was,
"One day, you'll find someone who'll love you more than I do, whether it be romantically, or from your family. You deserve so much love,"
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Alexandra Rose
Teen FictionIt's been ten years since the Stones family lost their little girl. In those ten years, Alexandra Rose has grown up with an abusive foster father who has neglected her to the point where she almost reached death. One day, two men find Alexandra in...
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