Roses blooming from the chaos - Minsung

Chapter 45

"I felt so... betrayed" Jisung gulped hard, biting anxiously at his bottom lip "The second the words left Jeongho's mouth, I was so disoriented. I couldn't understand why he was saying those things, and thought that I was tripping. I was ready to laugh it out loud, until I saw the look on your faces" He said, voice lowering at the end

"You thought we would believe you, right?" Minho soundlessly asked

"I thought yes... Guess I was wrong" He chuckled dryly "It killed me. I really thought it was a sick joke, until you stepped back. That was my last straw. Then I started talking and y'all only got more reluctant... You wouldn't even look at me in the eyes" He stated, voice wavering more and more

Minho listened closely, trying to act as if any of this memory wasn't making him feel like the dumbest.

"Then Chan told you to kill me, and you actually stepped forward..." Jisung chuckled dryly again "To be honest, I don't think I would have been able to fight back if you did try. I think I would have let you kill me, I would never have the strength to fight with you anymore."

"And... after?" Minho asked

"I got back" He shrugged "I hacked into Chan's laptop and stole all the information concerning Jeongho. I got ready and ran to him" He admitted, and Minho's eyes widened

"Y- You did?!"

"Yeah. Arriving there, his technology was a bit too advanced. I couldn't attack him, and he tried to destabilize me psychologically. And Ray shot me from the back"

"You were shot?!" Minho abruptly tightened his hand on Jisung's one, feeling completely helpless

"I had a bulletproof jacket" He reassured "But it still hurt like a bitch. I tried to defend myself, but it only got worse. Ray beated me up, then Jeongho threw me out of the window, basically"

"I... You..." Minho stuttered, unable to form any sentence

"I'm alive" Jisung stated with a chuckle, watching Minho's concerned state

"How?!" Minho asked in disbelief

"Luck. I fell on garbage, and those two kids saved me"

"They did?"

"Yeah"

Minho stayed silent.

He looked at his lap, in total shock of everything that happened.

His Jisung almost died, almost left this world why Minho was mad at him, cursing him from his bed.

"You feel guilty?" Jisung interrupted his thoughts, voice low.

"A lot" Minho admitted, gulping hard

"Okay" Jisung whispered, unable to comfort him "You listened to me, I can listen to you now"

"Are you sure?" Minho asked, head raising

"Yes, go on" He said, and Minho took a huge breath.

"When Jeongho told the lies... I started rethinking everything. I saw myself back then, when I didn't want to trust you... I felt abused" He said, eyes staring at nothing

"Mmh"

"This whole interaction was so sped up in my mind. I could see you crying and yelling, and I felt frozen, deep in thoughts to process everything" He continued, taking a pause to not burst in tears "I didn't know if I should trust you or not... I was so lost... When Chan told me to eliminate you, I think I replayed every minute I had with you, again and again, and I couldn't do it. And fuck... Never in my life I decline killing someone" He admitted

Jisung chuckled, before getting serious once again after seeing Minho's defeated expression.

"It hurt to think you just played me... What I felt for you was so suddenly strong, it felt like my heart tore out of my chest at the single thought of you meaning nothing of everything we did..."

"Felt?" Jisung asked in surprise

"I still do, Jisung. So much" Minho confessed as his eyes fixated on Jisung once again, eyes yelling sincerity.

"Min..."

"I can't believe you were dying while I was sleeping soundly..." Minho whispered, voice wavering.

"You know..." Jisung gulped, wondering for a moment if he should admit that or not "When I flew out of the window... you were the one that was in my mind" He admitted, eyes directed to his lap

"I... really?"

"Minho!" Someone yelled in the corridors, and Minho hurriedly went to the door, surprised by the sudden sound.

"I've tracked you from your phone, I saw you were at the hospital, are you o-" Chan said, panicking as he charged in the room. 

His mouth fell agape as he noticed the boy in the bed.

"Hello, Chan. I've heard you proved my innocence" Jisung said, the corner of his lips slightly going upwards.

Chan's eyes wettened as he suddenly went to the ground, bowing completely to Jisung as he pressed his eyes close.

"I'm so sorry Jisung" He said, voice wavering "I failed to help and protect you, I'm so sorry" He added "I want to try again" He pleaded

Minho smiled at his leader as he went beside him, mimicking his posture as he bowed in apology as well.

"I'm sorry I failed to make you feel loved. I want to try again" He pleaded as well.

Jisung looked in shock at the two, watching two of the most powerful people he had ever met begging on their knees for pardon. 

That made him a little emotional as a few tears left their eyes.

"I'll be glad to come back" Jisung stated softly

"Really?!" Minho's head jolted back up, as Chan followed and looked up at the other.

"But I'll need some time. It hurt, but I understand you" Jisung said, slowly sitting up as he winced a bit "Chan, I know you'll always try to take the best décision to protect your members, and Minho, I know you felt deeply confused" He said, watching how their expression fell a bit "I'll come back with you when I can get back from that hospital, but strictly to one thing"

"One thing?" Minho asked, voice low.

"We'll eliminate Jeongho, as soon as possible, and then I'll leave"

The sentence Jisung just said sent waves of pain through Minho's body.

"Leave...?" Minho repeated again in a whisper.

"I thought a lot when I was alone. I don't want to feel like I've been abandoned once again. I don't want to risk losing any of you. That hurt enough once" Jisung admitted, head shaking from left to right.

"But if you leave, you'll hurt again?" Chan asked, confused as he noticed how Minho's breath scattered.

"Maybe, but it's for the better" Jisung said with a little smile "Let's kill Jeongho together, we'll join our forces one for all, professionally"