Meetha sa Ruhani ISHQ (Sequel)

215. Traumatic incident part 15

Mini kept her hand on his cheek and looked at him. Neil closed her eyes feeling her soothing touch but then felt her taking her hand back. He opened his eyes immediately. He looked at Mini, she was looking at her hand. Her nails had blood on them.

Mini: Yeh khoon kaise?

Neil held her hand and saw the blood. He immediately looked to her for every possible visible injury.

Neil: Kahin khoon nikal raha hai?... Pain hai?

Mini confusedly nodded in a no. She thought and remembered her clenching her fists behind Neil's neck.

Mini: Piche turn ho.

Neil: Kyu? Kya hua?

Mini: Turn ho na.

Neil turned to the other side.

Mini saw some scratches at the nape of his neck, little blood oozing was visible to her.

Mini touched it softly. That's when Neil felt slight pain and he realised how her nails must have got blood.

Mini: Tumhare gale pe to scratches se khoon tak aa gaya hai... Pain ho raha hoga na?

Neil turned with a smile. His smile was actually real which was slightly confusing for Mini.

Neil: Nahi... Itne dino se jo emotional pain lag raha tha.... usse relief jo mil gaya hai... yeh to kuch nahi hai... theek ho jayega.

Mini could understand him.

Mini: Ointment do... main laga deti hu...

She applied ointment to him while blowing slowly. He was looking at her from the mirror and was smiling seeing her, getting back as normal.

He turned to her and looked at her lovingly.

Neil: (keeping his hand on her cheek) Tum better feel kar rahi ho ab?

Mini: (nodding) Ha.... bahot light feel ho raha hai.... aisa lag raha hai jaise sar ke upar se ek bahot bada weight hat gaya ho.... sahi kaha tha tumne... ek baar himmat karke bol lene ke baad saans le paa rahi hu main.... vo ghutan nahi lag rahi hai ab... Thank you...

Neil: (pecking on her forehead) Anytime for you..... Anything for you.....

Mini's eyes got teary again and she lowered her gaze sobbing while Neil could feel a guilt on her face.

Neil: (caressing her hair) Kya hua?.... Maine bola na... mujhse jhijhko mat na pls... Jo bolna hai bolo... (hugging her again) Main hu tumhare paas.... tumhe sunne ke liye...

Mini: (heavy voice) I am sorry Neil... I am really sorry...

Neil: H?

Neil couldn't understand why was she apologising and his grip loosened in confusion. She sobbed and continued.

Mini: I am genuinely sorry... main hi tumpe trust nahi kar paayi.... yeh jaante hue ki you can't even think something like this... I doubted you... Sorry Neil...

Neil: (looked at her lowered head confused at her words) Kya bol rahi ho?.... Kya soch nahi sakta?... You doubted me matlab?

Mini: (tears rolled down her eyes) Uss incident ke baad... Jab bhi tum meri care karte the to kahin na kahin mujhe yeh lagne laga tha jaise kahin tum sirf meri condition ki wajah se sympathise to nahi kar rahe... kahin sirf mujhe console to nahi kar rahe.... jab mujhe hosh aaya tha hospital me tab bhi mera haath tumhari taraf badhate badhate ruk gaya kyunki mujhe laga pata nahi ab tum mera saath chahoge ya nahi... jab ghar aane ke baad tumne mere per chue to bhi mujhe hichak hui kyunki main.... bahot baar koshish bhi kari ki tumse dur ho jaau.... par nahi kar paayi... main khud ko hi accept nahi kar paa rahi thi shayad.... tumhe bilkul pehle jaise meri care karte hue dekha... to dheere dheere samjhaya khud ko... par phir bhi... Abhi jab tumne bola na... ki main tumhari baat ko galat na samjhu to.... to main dar gayi thi ki kahin... kahin tum mujhe chod to nahi doge... I am sorry... aaj phir vahi khayaal aaya mere man me ki tum chale jaoge ab shayad mujhe chodke... Tum jaante ho na... meri life me kabhi aisa koi nahi tha jo unconditionally meri care kare.... mujhe aur mere pain ko samjhe har baar without fail.... Babes bhi nahi... jab meri maa hi mujhe kabhi samajh nahi paayi to.... to... to mujhe laga..... Mujhe lagne laga tha ki... mujhe kyu hi sambhaalna chahoge tum.... mujhe itna toota hua dekhke..... bikharta hua dekhke.... shayad thak jaoge mujhse..... thak jaoge tum mujhe sambhaalte sambhaalte shayad.... (resting her cheek on his torso) I am sorry Neil.... Main trust nahi kar paayi tumpe...