Unspoken Poetry

The Monster in My Mind

* a poem about social anxiety*

As I walk down the hallway

My mind plays tricks on me

in the corner of my eye

they're all staring at me

I check to make sure,

but it's my mind tricking me.

I walk faster, hoping to hide

from the monster waiting inside.

I walk into class

eyes on the ground,

believing their watching me

every step, every sound.

at least, that's what the monster tells me.

I try to shut it out, but it instead

I'm trapped in my head

I try to fight it

to stop it from controlling my mind

because if I don't,

I will be left far behind.

But in the end, I just try to hide from the

monster waiting inside.

Friends will fade

People will leave,

and once more, I'm all alone

with only my thoughts for company

I was so naive,

thinking you would stay

to help light the way

I still dream of a light,

someone to help me out of the dark

where my mind is haunted in

gleeful delight.

I try to shut it out on my own,

but it only seems to grow,

thriving in the dark,

while I freeze, dauntingly slow

As I take a frozen breath,

I see a light heading towards me

slowly it brightens,

and I see,

Hope is waiting on me.