I'm Not Poly | Felix X Stray Kids

BONUS CHAPTER: Jeongsung

This takes place three months after the Jeongmin chapter. I hope that this doesn't disappoint. I wasn't really sure what to do with this chapter, so...I hope it isn't too out of the water.

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~Jeongin's POV~

Why do I have to be in this situation?

Back to back with Jisung, laying in the same bed, neither of us saying a thing to each other as our four alphas, minus Seungmin, stood outside the door to block either of us from leaving Jisung's room. I had been picked up and forced to come in here by Minho, and now, it was bedtime on an important night for us, as we had a big modeling deal going on for Jisung tomorrow. But of course, our mates had to do this to us, despite knowing we aren't talking.

I hate this situation.

He was my best friend, and now...

Now I've got mating bites from all of his boyfriends after unknowingly dating one of his alphas.

I can't imagine how he feels, when I feel this bad.

I want my best friend back...

But is that even possible after everything that's happened? Between Seungmin and I moving in--for them to watch Seungmin and because they were getting antsy without me being a finger away at all times--Jisung hadn't had much say in me becoming their mate at all. I knew he didn't like it. And while I was still nervous as hell about the whole polyamory business, I did want to stay with them. I understood why he loved all of these alphas. But...I felt like I didn't have a place with them here now, when my...old best friend was their mate first.

I feel like I can't be in love with them since Jisung had them first. But...despite how much I wish I could take things back, I couldn't. I was in the relationship now, and I couldn't back out without hurting all five of the alphas. I don't know what to do...

The silence between us was unbearable. And it bothered me that I couldn't see him. I could hear his deep breathing, like he was already asleep. As if he didn't feel this tension, and it was all me. Like my fears and worries were just an illusion, and Jisung and I were still best friends. Neither of us had dated the other's mate. We weren't in a horrible situation, where we're dating the same alphas. Like we still went and got coffee together in the mornings. Like we still gossiped back and forth about every little thing. Like we were still talking. Like we were still even friends.

But no. Jisung was sleeping behind me because he wanted to, not because he felt any of that.

I was about at my breaking point. I missed my best friend. I wanted nothing more than for things to go back to the way they were. I wish that I knew Seungmin was Jisung's. So I could never take him away. So he could be Jisung's, and...I would never be in the picture. We could be friends, and...I could eventually get over my crush on Seungmin and move on to a different alpha. Why couldn't that be the scenario? Why did reality have to be the harshest version of itself?

I ended up not being able to go to sleep for at least two hours after Jisung did. And that morning, I was tired throughout the entire photoshoot Jisung had before we'd be going to meet Jisung's photoshoot collab partner. We were teaming up with another company for a duo photoshoot, and waiting for them to arrive.