The monsters hidden in the shadows ATEEZ x reader

8.Pain full of secrets

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3 person pov
Y/n had already fallen asleep while the boys sat around the bed watching her with soft smiles playing at their lips. The room was left in comfortable silence but a certain tall Oreo haired boy had something to say. "I can feel how fast her heart is beating." The oldest of all the boys looked over at Mingi giving him the best side eye ever shaking his head. "She's probably thinking of all the good ways to kill you." Hongjoong chuckled as Mingi froze staring in space. "Don't do that you'll scare him." Seonghwa smirked putting his hands up in defense by the look on Sans face he knew this was gonna be a long night."Guys your thinking is too loud." The youngest boy rolled his eyes obviously annoyed with San.
"Then stop fucking reading them dumbass no one told you to listen." Jongho huffed out a breath when San shoved him back a little Hongjoong stood up checking his watch the looking at the boys. "With out fighting pick who lays with Y/n tonight so she doesn't hurt to much waking up and shit." All the boys looked at each other almost as if they were gonna start fighting at any given moment Hongjoong groaned and rolled his regretting his decision on even asking the boys. All the boys shared glances and started to argue even tho they had been told not to.
"I wanna sleep with her."
"Mingi you wanna sleep with everyone."
"I'm not a hoe Jongho."
"Well I wanna lay with her too and you kinda are."
"Yunho I swear be on my side for one day."
"Hmmm how about no."
"I said with out fighting."
"I wanna lay with her Hongjoong let me lay with her."
"No San all you wanna do is get on her phone and text people."
"So not true."
"Bitch yes it is."
"I SAID WITH OUT FIGHTING!"
"Then why even ask us?"
"Because I thought y'all could figure it out."
"We fight over who gets the last cookie."
"Yeahhhh we do don't we?"
"Do you think we're in cartoon or something? Asking dumb ass questions like that."
"Shut up you have no friends."
"Says the one who died because his friends pushed him off a cliff."
"Says the one who has no parents."
"Says the one who's gay."
"Mingi your like one of the gayest here."
"Am not."
"Are too."
"Come one guys act your age."
"Okay Seonghwa anit you like eighty three thousand?"
"Jongho I will whoop your ass."
"Thats really kinky."
"Come on woo your so wired."
"Okay and your kinky."
"You know what I got it all of you go to bed." Hongjoong groaned pushing all the boys out of the room. He rubbed his eyes walking over to the bed where Y/n is sleeping and got in beside her rubbing her back. "I wanna give you everything and anything you could ask for." Hongjoong smiled placing a kiss on Y/ns head before laying right next to her. Slowly wrapping his arms around her torso.

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Y/ns pov
I cuddled to the person next to me in hopes to take away the pain that was running through my whole body. The person beside me wrapped their arms around which made me warm but I was still in pain. "School I gotta go to school." I groaned sitting up with the help of Hongjoong. I walked to the closest and grabbed out a hoodie and pair of baggy jeans(In my baggy baggy baggy baggy baggy baggy jeans 🙌🏾). I usually wear a uniform but every Tuesdays and Fridays are free dress day. "Hey I can help you with your shirt." I looked at Hongjoong in all honesty I was gonna say yes but then I realized he was gonna see more then my stomach meaning he'd see my bra and that's not gonna happen I would feel so awkward. "No no it's fine." I smiled sweetly at Hongjoong but he only shook his head. "I'm not gonna look I'm just gonna help you take it off and put one on because the shirt might get stuck to the wound." I stared at Hongjoong trying to think straight I mean I know he only means well but still I'd feel so weird after. I was so lost in thought that Hongjoong walked over to me lifting my shirt up half way. "Hey take it off my eyes are closed." I couldn't speak so I just did as he said and tapped his hand when I was finished. "Told you it wasn't hard now I'm gonna wrap the wound up so it doesn't get affected and so it's easy to wear shirt." I nodded my head slowly as Hongjoong smiled placing some kind ointment on the wound then putting some wrap on it. The ointment burned the skin and it was also cold as fuck so I hated it but I couldn't flinch back in pain cuz it would only make it worse. "Now you can put a shirt on I'll leave you be so you can do whatever you have to do." Hongjoong smiled placing a kiss on my cheek then walking out. I couldn't help but wonder why my heart was beating ten times faster did I like Hongjoong no that couldn't happen I liked Jay and I was sure about. But if so why did my face heat up and my heart beat faster?

3rd person pov
As the h/c girl walked to class she couldn't help but wonder why she stumbled on her words when Mingi handed her a bagged lunch and then kissed her forehead. She couldn't help but think she was falling for the boys who she stayed with she also couldn't help the tears that fell from her face. Maybe I didn't like Jay and it was just in my head to forget about these boys she thought in her head. The boys are good looking no doubt but if I did like them I would have knew by now? The h/c girl thought once again. As she sat down in her chair fighting back all her tears even tho some had already fallen. She was in the middle of class crying with her head down but for what? Why am I crying when these boys are being so thoughtful to protect me? What if I mess things up I've been staying with them for at least half a month I've grown really close to the them I can't ruin it now. How could I fall for all of them I can't possibly date all eight of them? The poor girl kept all her bad thoughts bottled in trying not scream at the top of her lungs while crying and making her hoodie sleeves wet. She couldn't help but bounce her leg up and down while trying to push all her thoughts away. She wanted to lose all these feelings she didn't wanna love someone who couldn't or wouldn't return the love back. But that's the hard thing what if the boys did want her just as bad she wanted them? But how would she know when she couldn't even come across the point that she was able to be loved and it wasn't just her who loved people, people loved her. Y/n sat al her desk bouncing her leg up in and down trying not to cry any harder in hopes the bell would ring and she could be with Hanni for a while.

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Y/ns pov
I walked slow as possible down the hall to my next class trying to wash away the fact I was crying for about the whole class period. I knew how worried Hanni would be if she saw my eyes puffy or red she would be on my ass in a fucking flash. Once I made it to the class I took my spot next to Hanni and she turned to me as soon I sat down she gave me a sad smile before moving closer. "The teacher emailed me during class saying you were crying the whole period I would ask why but I've been your friend long enough to know that for one you won't tell me and for two I know when your going through crush thing." Hanni squeezed my hand as I was left speechless I'm starting to think my friends know me better than I I know myself. "Now I know you wanna know how I know but it's so very very obvious,when you and your roommates got in your first fight the boys said you came there crying. Also Felix said when you told him about your roommates your eyes lit up and that only happens when you take interest to or in something. You also wore a hoodie that's clearly way too big for you and not to mention it smells like Mingi and Yunho. I kinda expected It even tho I was really hoping for Jay I could see you with your roommates and y'all would look cute together. But if I see you crying again over some boys I'll hurt them then slap you because your a bad bitch you don't need no boy the fuck but yeah I will kill them even if I don't make it out alive I will kill them." Hanni smiled at me then started writing her name on the paper that was passed out like she didn't just read me like book then proceed to tell me she was gonna commit murder. "When you said best friends can't keep secrets from each other I didn't know you meant literally not keeping no secrets what so ever." I looked at Hanni dumbfounded and she just smiled shaking her head god my friends are all crazy. I chuckled the started going through the problems on the paper with Hanni. I hated math with a burning passion but I was pretty good at it and so was Hanni so we got through it pretty quick.
"Number eight is twenty four."
"So that makes it a even number and when we get one of those."
"We have to multiply it by two."
"And that leave us with forty eight"
"Yep."
"Y/n write your name on the paper then I'll turn it In."
"I did."
"No you didn't you just put hearts around the number eight."
"Shit I did?"
"Oh god your love struck."
"Am not."
"Give me the paper so I can turn it in."
"Fine here."
I chuckled handing Hanni the paper getting our stuff together to go to lunch. Once the bell started to ring we walked out of class and waited by locker two zero one and locker two zero two so the boys could come meet up with us.

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Last period until I get to go home and I was so happy not because I hated school but because my stomach started to hurt. I sat at my desk listening to the teacher talk as I wrapped my hands around my body my stomach hurt like a bitch. I wanted to scream out in pain when a wave of what felt like extreme heat hit my body it felt like I was being cooked in a oven and I hated it my stomach started to burn and sting. God it hurt so bad as soon as the bell rang I ran out of class and out the school doors. I needed to get home as fast as possible and Lucky for me I live so far from campus great. I have to walk about fifteen minutes before I even get close enough to stop at one gas station.