FLOWERS (Mason Mount)

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I woke up the next morning with a big headache

Last night after me and Mason talked I told Sophia everything which made me cry. I don't know why, I just wanted to get everything off my chest, and I did

...

This morning I woke up early

Sophia was still asleep so I went downstairs to wait for Mason

I had finally made my decision

...

When he did wake up we sat down in the kitchen drinking our coffee in silence

"I made my decision" I said after I rinsed my cup in the sink

He did the same before following me to the living room

We both sat down on the couch opposite each other

"I'm listening"

I took a deep breath before speaking

He knew what I was about to do because he put his hood up and played with his sleeves

"I thought about what you said, I really did" my voice broke "I just want you to know that every month I spent with you was special and I'll forever cherish the time we spent together but I can't take you back, not after what you did"

He didn't say anything

"I know that it wasn't you and I believe you I fucking do but I just can't, I can't trust you again, I want to but I just can't" I let the tears roll down my face as I sat there looking at him, looking at the person I once loved, the person I still love

Mason moved closer and pulled me in for a hug

I cried into his arms knowing this might be the last time

We stayed hugging until he cupped my face and whipped my tears

I could see how he was holding back tears, his eyes were glistening

"It's okay" he whispered before pulling me in for another hug

"I tried, I really did" I say and he just nods while he strokes hair

In that moment I wanted nothing else then to change my mind and hold him closer this time, but I knew it was wrong

It would become an obsession

A toxic obsession

We got up from the couch and he held my hands while looking at me

"thank you for believing me but I wish I could've done better" he started talking but I cut him off "you did" I gave him a weak smile

"whatever you decide to do with the rest of your life just remember that I'll always love and support you"

"thank you" I could feel the tears roll down my face but I let them, I let them this time

"I love you Cory Anderson" he said  before he cupped my face and kissed me. The kiss was a goodbye kiss, I could feel it in the way he held me, pulled me closer like it was the last time, it was the last time. Mason kissed me so passionately yet so desperately, it was the last kiss, our last kiss

We finally parted our lips and I rested my forehead on his. I could feel his breath on me

"I love you Mason Mount"

Mason smiled before giving me one more peck and leaving

The second I heard the front door close I dropped to the floor crying

He was gone